i just want to screem for the sake of screaming
or cry just because....

gah...

i havent slept for days...it sucks
i just can't stand whats going on inside, and the funny thing is I have no idea what the hell it is.
im hurting....
i need sleep.

i feel so out of it.
FAT
i need to stop eating crap.
need to be 100lbs soon.
need to start running
need to go to bed eventually

Gah...No bed for me. I think Ive seen the sun rise every morning for the last month and a half and it is driving me mad. I am not going to lie, I use to think it was a beautiful sight but now I just get this anxious feeling in my stomach that makes me never to see one again. I have a routine. I sit watch a bit of tv. I walk for a bit. I come back ( Read more... )

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i think j.ry knows me better then i give him credit.

i dont think i have been able to since he died. true story.

woke up
ran
ate
watch lost
then charmed
then greys anatomy and lost...my two loves in the whole world.

and ps....im cursed...with never sleeping..and never being in love

To graduate pretty much, im looking for jobs for this class I am in and it is getting me super anxious to get out of here ( Read more... )

new addiction to matthew fox and that guy with really blue eyes.

so i dont ever sleep at normal hours ...i have found a new addiction....downloading Lost episodes off of Itunes....I am so addicted to it now true story....i just dont like watching the scary parts when i am alone in my apartment...haha. such a nerd i know.