Shallow breathing crushing down ( Read more... )

Do you have any idea how much it hurts?  Do you have any idea how hard it is to keep on ticking when your entire insides have been ripped out?  I feel so heavy... for being so hallow.  Fuck.

Things have gotten better... much better.  It was like something clicked. Just one day after one of our many fights and talks about how I can't take being treated like this anymore, he changed. Or he UNchanged.  He started being the man I married again.  Things have been great.  We still have work to do, we are working on rebuilding trust (and ( Read more... )

Ok, so its been a really really long time since I have posted anything here.  But things have been crazy lately and I really need an outlet.  I dont know where to start...

oh wait...

... yeah I do

I HATE FUCKING DELICH!!!

Nothing has been the same since he decided to go on his little killing spree.  I am so mad at what he took...  it goes so much ( Read more... )

 this weekend was perfect. I got to spend the whole weekend with my wonderful amazing husband. We laughed all day and held on to each other all night. It was my last full weekend with him for the next seven months. It will be hard, but so worth it. As Alkaline Trio so wonderfully put it "A Thousand Miles Aint Shit To Walk If I'm Walking To Hold You ( Read more... )

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Plus One

Spinning rush of breathlessness

Passion, purity and innocence

Soaring well above the ground

Blind and deaf to all around

Consumed by chaos and clarity

A poet's desire is my reality

Lips bring a weakness like no other

Not needing to hide, needing no cover

Each moment brings exponential growth

Never questioning the truth of my oath

Unstoppable with ( Read more... )

Kendall Fish-
Are you ever on this anymore?  I hardly am, I pretty much check it for updates on you.  I usually walk away empty handed.  I miss you bunches!  Call me sometime before I go to BMT.  that is all.

 It's so long Tucson!

I  can't believe I am finally moving away from Tucson... seriously, this is nuts.  It feels like I am only going on a short trip... but I'm not.  I will be in apartments in San Antonio until December 11th... then In San Antonio on base in the dorms for BMT through January... then San Angelo, TX for my tech school until June or July... then who ( Read more... )