Today everything that went down was either wrong or just upsetting ( Read more... )

I woke up...late again! and went to work. While at work i did well nothing at all .. i got paid to sit there really ... until the mad rush came in and we did a 1300 dollar hour. that was soo much fun! -sarcasm ( Read more... )

i leace soon..... goin to florida. Gramps is in the hospital, but not for long .. im just goin there to see how he is doing. i hope he's ok.. he says he is but i have a feeling that he's not. hes alone.

i feel so... sexily stupid today...later

Nothings really new in the life that i lead ( Read more... )

Update:

- work sucked, i have tomorrow off tho.

im making a quilt... cool huh?

- went back to the singing lessons

why do guys suck? ( i dont expect and answer )

I am taking time off of work... ummm i dont know if ill get to do everything that i want to... but... im going to try. Anyway, OH SHIT! im going to a rodeo tonight. lol

talk about weird ... right? gotta go .. laterz

So, i just cant believe the way i feel. I always thought that i shouldn't have to feel so upset about certain things, it was just part of my mind that someone else's life and thoughts could be more disturbing then mine. I now realize that no matter how many times i can think my life is good.. it's just not the way i want it. Most of the time i feel ( Read more... )

I am almost sure i have been here before ( Read more... )

Although this is a quote it's how i feel most of the time with people....

" i can't take it anymore
when i am with you i feel like i am nothing, like im nothing
That's why i won't even let you touch me
i dont touch you
i dont even think about you
because everytime i start to it just reminds me that i am not goo enough. "

I have an older half brother named kevin. He contacted my mom in the end of last year and now mom wants to meet him. I said i would go with her seeing as how she doesn't want to go alone. What if he hates us? what if he can't bring himself to meet up and leaves us standing there like idiots. So many questions flow through my mind on this topic that ( Read more... )