Heaven knows with the rollercoaster that I have been on tonight a woman woulc be much easier to monuvier around. I am in love and I am just afraid with everyone that my heart is being hopskotched over. Like he is counting with every crack. I know that I am not number one on speed dial, but that no good hoodrat, coniving bitch, number one, why ( Read more... )

Well, I have hated my job since I was doing everyone's job for them. So I no longer work there. I am now currently jobless and looking ( Read more... )

I ended last year hopeless and insistant on being my own person, going through whatever trials I had to to do what I had to do for my betterment. Over the summer, I became better aquainted with a friend, and found that I can become close to another human being in a way that will not hurt me. Regardless of of negative or positive outcome, my ( Read more... )

Okay, so I have had a lot of fun this year. I am tired of English, I am tired of psychology and I am tired of Java City. I love George, his friends and the way I can just chill around them ( Read more... )

Oh my gosh, I have had the best year so far, but I guess I am having a delayed lapse right now, and well, I have been tired all damn day, I have officially gotten sick and yesterday my mother left the message on my voice mail that my grandmother's on life support. This is just minor stuff, but the small stuff that I have to do, I don't have time ( Read more... )

I am back at Central and George and I have been together for about 2 and half months. I think that he is great, and things are going alright. I have found myself putting myself in multiple situations that I want to run from. My mother and I were talking and she told me to stop trying to see myself as having a problem and start just trying to ( Read more... )

I was thinking today and I have come the conclusion that politicians are hustlers. They are just like salesmen and it wouldn't bother me if they didn't hold so much power. I hate that aspect of life here. In the US, a fraction of the population controls how the majority of the population lives and if that fraction is corrupt or easily ( Read more... )

I am in college, and I think the reason that I am not motivated the way that I should be is that I am doing it b/c I feel like I should be doing it, but not that I have done anything special, however, what I have forgotten is that I could be somewhere else, the fact that I have made it this far is a huge stepping stone, because of the simple fact ( Read more... )

Well, now I am confused. Making money is nice, but I only planned on making money for me to live comfortably on, really that is what we are raised to do, look out for number one, and in that case I am willing to make the appropriate sacrifices to be happy. Though now I am in a relationship, that may not last for always and in that case shouold I ( Read more... )

George and I are together now, we have been since June 19. I am happy, he is such a great person, but, my fears have once again resurfaced. Am I a bad person? I know that I am not, but I don't mean to be meanspirited and at times I am. I am afraid that people will get to know me and think that I am nutty or stupid or just a plain old bitch. ( Read more... )