So I realized that I hate rap music, but it's not because of the music, it is because of the unnecessary force of the establisment to push violence and irresponsibility. I do however like Lil Wayne, but not necessarily for his music, but for the positive things that he has said in his music. I like Misunderstood, which is the track where he ( Read more... )

Take Back The Night was incredible. Rachel Griffin's introduction by Steve Thompson was so warm and heart felt. She really moved me. When I first got here to CMU I wanted to be just like her when I left. Now I am very different, but with the same heart for the abused. The biggest difference is that I had to find myself differently that she had ( Read more... )

This week I went in and she has asked me to find "Seven Weeks to Better Sex" which they do not have at CMU or at Chippewa River, or at the Book Exchange, so I am feeling a little frustruated because finding this book will allow me to write up a small synapsis of this book for her to give to clients. I would not only feel useful, but I would get a ( Read more... )

I am covert. As explanation for being dark. I am like a hidden mission for "good". Anyway, the week of 3/27 and 3/28, I screened videos for theraputic usage, such as marijuana and relationships. So many videos are bad, not bad as in "can be tolerated" but bad as "BAD". That was horrible, except for the video that took everything all of them ( Read more... )

I understand that this is supposed to be for journaling, so here we go. I am amazed that first of all how many people in this community utilize the community counseling center, I did not even know it was there. Possibly if I am able to go on in my education, I could work there, the ladies are nice and polite, they have a lot of things for ( Read more... )

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So I used to be a freak, porn toys, whatever, we could use it. Well, now my life has changed, I no longer want to engage in sex. Well, George has known this for a long time, and we do live together, but more because I was forced into the situation and not so much as I was drooling over living with Ethan and them. Well, today, I am on the phone ( Read more... )

God has a very unique sense of humor. George and I are now finishing up our first year as a couple together. This is really cool and fun. I am trying to get my physical appearance top notch because, I want him to look at me and see... I don't know what I want him to see. Our relationship has inspired lifestyle changes on both ends. He has ( Read more... )

I am not a snoop, though I can be nosy. I have recently about in the last 3 months come to the understanding that George (if he was completely able) would go through, possibly evewn rummage through all of my shit, which gives me equal rights. And until about the last month and a half, I have not used them, until today. So, should I start at the ( Read more... )

Today George's boy Marcus had some drama and that is truly frustrating me. Anyway, right now I don't know whether to be upset with myself or with George. George has been really irritable lately, he has been aggravated with two people in particular. A guy and a girl. See this chick is friends with all of the former work crew, and she slept with ( Read more... )