Comments | gillo: My Truth

gillo

My Truth

Nov 28, 2022 18:47

Or my perception of events. But it’s true for me.

Life this year has had highs and deep lows. I’m writing this to try to set some of it in context, mostly for myself.

( TL:DR the background )

stress, me

Comments 33

enigmaticblues February 14 2023, 03:04:32 UTC

Ooooof. How I missed this, I have no idea. Maybe it was over Thanksgiving? I know I got behind, and never quite caught up, so please don't think my lack of commenting was any sort of judgment. I know how precious fandom is to my mental health, though, and also how bad it can be when I feel as though I've been kicked in the teeth. I've had those interactions that have left me shaking so hard from rage and hurt that I couldn't type, or even really think straight.

This sounds like Mean Girls 101 to me, and I'm so sorry you had to deal with it. I'm sorry you're still dealing with it. I wish you health and healing and comfort.

rebcake March 21 2023, 04:34:47 UTC

Oh, Gill! I'm so sorry! I missed all this entirely, not being on either SAD or LJ very often. I think I joined over there because you mentioned it, but will probably cancel that now.

I'm not sure I entirely follow the order of events, because LJ is so clunky for me now, but it does sound horrible. I'm glad that you were made whole financially, but there's still the huge emotional injury involved, which is much tougher to fix.

Hang in there! I'm dealing with a lot of parental care issues, but if they resolve - and it looks like things are looking up, this week anyway - I'm considering coming Over There for a month or two this fall. WriterConUK?

gillo March 21 2023, 12:35:06 UTC

I don't want people to take a stand on my behalf. Four months on I'm still suffering from what happened, and I would hate for others to be dragged into it. Their account would not be the same as mine - if you look at my reply to curiouswombat you'll find a link to their account and rationale. From my POV there are distortions and outright lies there, but M - the Australian who also left - told me what I wrote here was "inaccurate, expectedly". Quite how something I flagged as very specifically my own understanding of my own experience can be that, I don't know, but still ( ... )

debris4spike July 17 2023, 16:03:11 UTC

I am so so sorry to read this ... and so sorry that I was away when you posted this.

Yes, Spike & Giles would have lifted a glass ... especially as Spike was alive for Queen Victoria, so had un-lived through 2 amazing reigns.

So, so sorry.

brunettepet July 24 2023, 03:16:52 UTC

I'm so sorry this happened. I hope you're doing better after such an awful experience. These people were terrible to you and ousted you from something you worked hard to build.

They were in the wrong but I know that doesn't really help *massive hugs*