so i haven't written in forever. i thought that i would leave you with this quote : when the horse throws you off, you get back up and shoot it.

maybe all i need is a little time to heal, then maybe, just maybe i will begin to feel like myself again.

doing nothing on new years... again. how new and exciting am i? so yeah not a huge surprise, but they let us out of work early to celebrate new years, and i am not in a celebrating mood. maybe tomo when teddy comes back, but until then, nada.

there are some days when i just feel like giving up. like nothign good could possibly come from living. i don't think i will ever be special to anyone except for those i have already lost. damn. that blows.

happy birthday to me. i have to work. i hate christmas. that is all.

this must be what it feels like when you die. an apology to everyone. i am a liar and a deciever. whoever wants first dibs on my carcass they are more than welcome to partake in some carnage.

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so i decided that sometimes life is just shitty to make you think about everythign you should be thankful for. for example: my sisters getting married: bad because of the possibility of divorce or sadness, and good because of a new beginning. teddy moving away: bad because you never realize how much a person meens to you until you can't just zoom ( Read more... )

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yesterday I had one of the worst days of my life, but teddy seems to make everything better. yay for him.i saw harry potter and didn't want it to end. i have soemthing to be thankful for this year. yay for me. i hope u all do too.