So ive had a wild ride since iast time i wrote. ive recently come to realiz that if you want something done then you have to call a hemo. i mean when your hellbent on getting something done then were your men. yes men cause we hemos dont have the good "X" chromsome that women do. so you will not find anyone more detrimned then us few. theres ( Read more... )

today started out reall good and it progressed real well ive got some stuff on my mind but im not ready to put it down im in such a good mood i dont want to bring it down with what hit me in the shower. so back onto a happier thought ill be taking care of myself tonight i hope i just got an inside word that my nurse might be working and so i might ( Read more... )

so heres my latetest stunt i like to pull i now sleep for a day stay awake for a day ive done it i cant rember days anymore cause their all blending together i went to bed at 4pm yesterday and are just now getting up so ill be up probally till sometime tomorow hows that for one. well all in all im in fairly good spirts still waiting on my dads ( Read more... )

Your Element Is Earth


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this is me live and uncut. this isnt the me most of you know cause this is what i deal with inside and this journal is more for me to sort myself out than it is for everyone to know. so when im conected with my head and my hands just start typing and something happens to me where i discover something and i suddleny head down another tangent its ( Read more... )

i think the only thing of got left right now is to lay on my back let my leg do those painful little spasms its doing right now listen to my music reflect and shed some tears cuase that seems like all ive got anymore is a lot of memories and how there not going to be the same anymore.. i mean kick my feet out from neath me and im going to fall and ( Read more... )

it looks like im going to have to go to portland to figure out whats wrong with my arm. so thats going to be fun. i want to try and get into the pain clinic there. hopefully someone can help me out cause i cant take this much more. just my problems alone have me in a bad situation but throw my curent family situation into the mix and its just ( Read more... )

so lets recap ive got doctors who wont see me ive done some resarch into pains IE> what causes them, treatment options. so now that i can put into words what it feels like when its bad and im telling anyone who listens and in pearson i can see it in the eyes you cant hide it espicaly when you look at me and see someone who is healthy and young and ( Read more... )

okay its offical im living in a bad dream. my dads sister who just moved up here and bought the house next to thier parents house or my dads parents my grandparents that i grew up with. well im pretty sure that my mom informed me last night that my aunt had a hysterctmy which it seems like everyone is gettting one. my Gma that im staying with my ( Read more... )

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