so ive really not found the need or time to post in here as i use to. its propbally cause i dont really need this anymore. this use to be my outlet and now i kind of dont need it anymore. humph well the fam is holding it together for the time being. so far the summer hasnt been bad just cant belive ill be 22 at the end of this month. i think ( Read more... )

wow a lots happened since i last spoke my mind here really havent needed to. well i went to hawaii again this time on a 10 day cruise with the fam. got an upper respotory infenction the day before i was sopuse to leave. had to wear a mask all the time to keep my aunt and grandmother safe from it. so the trip was fun if you want to know more about ( Read more... )

eXpressive: 5/10 ( Read more... )

not much to say really my hand is starting to do some weird numbing thing. my thumb index and middle finger are all numb and it wakes me up at night with them on fire and the whole arm is numb. everyone is pointing the finger to my new medince paxil which i think im slowly satarting to notice. im a litlle distracted at the moment i think its the ( Read more... )

so im getting the runaround with doctors again tell me something new and now im not the only one starting to see it. i mean i just wish people would just have a bit more of an open mind cause when your closeminded about stuff than its just so stupid. im seeing this shrink to help me figure out why i have such a hard time now getting my shots. so ( Read more... )

so im writing this email and all this stuff was going through my head and decided to put some of it here. instead of going to classes everyday im usally seeing some form of doctor. be it PT, a shrink, my primary doc and lets not forget the lady that has to come to my house three times a week to give me my god damn forsaken shot. okay its been ( Read more... )

so im having one of my werid spells again like everything makes sense. you know i find it funny when my sense of irnoy or perspectice is out of foucus. ive been watching tv for the last couple of hours and i can see right through the illision. its like i understand that okay lets try this the movie i saw last that made this impression on me is ( Read more... )

so its the next day and ive got a zillian things right now just bouncy around in my head i think hold on ive got to figure out what im thinking first.....okay how bout this im relived that all the walking and standing i did yesterday turned out to be just arthritis and not a bleed i still think im going to take a celebrex just to be on the safe ( Read more... )

so it might have taken me a while to get back on but here is the current situation. i went to portland which is a 5 hour drive north if you include one meal stop. my dad drove me and my homie up there to get checked out. heres the part that iratatied the shit out of me. the first person i saw was the surgen he said two sentces to me and then ( Read more... )

so im pretty sure i smacked my leg on something cause i couldnt figure out why my whole leg was hurting till i noticed a painful bump on my thigh. so i cant rember when i hit it but who knows how long its been bleeding. and ive been doing so much standing in lines and walking that im pretty sure gravity caused to bleed into the whole leg cause ( Read more... )