I am wondering if I have been living with someone that I don't really know. Did I make an entire personality up for him ? at first I was thinking I could "settle" for friends , but now I am wondering if I really want to be his friend. Maybe I just expect too much out of people , I wonder where I learned that - probably from my mother. She expected ( Read more... )

So I have heard about couples "hating" each other after a breakup. I do not know how to hate. I am not being a mother teresa .. I honestly have a problem with anger... and "hate" , It is not because I am such a good person , because I am not always. .... in college I took a class on forgiveness with dr. brees like the wind , ... and the I left the ( Read more... )

Yesterday I had a terrible headache at work , and the lady who sits across from me gave me two motrin and 1/2 a vicoden. I giggled , what would 1/2 do for me. - But for the first time is 2 months my nerves were calm. I never used to think of myself as a nervous person , but I am. I need to get to the doctor and see what he can do for this. My mind ( Read more... )

I am feeling better today - I took the week off from being miserable , and it is kind of nice. I have been cleaning my house , and doing things to better my surroundings. Rob has decided to move into the same freaking complex as me ... I wonder if that is for him , or for me. Who am i kidding everything he does is for him in some way. Work is ( Read more... )

i am afraid of being lonely. There I said it out loud ( Read more... )

My Sister is addicted to Crack , what do you do with that ? do we know that ?? Tonight she called me from Jail , where no doubt , she was forced to turn in her chanel suit , and be deloused and put on a blue suit. She went to jail for hitting her boyfriends Cadilac 3 times. , on purpose and fleeing from the accident. She is unreal. 2 nights ago , I ( Read more... )

usually when i am crying uncontolably i start to analize why .. i begin to look for reasons why my tears are falling so hard so fast , and then I start to write hoping that what comes out on the paper will somehow make more sense than what is in my head swirling around , but it never does , it looks just like the mess in my head. i have excuses to ( Read more... )

I havent had anything to complain about lately , so that is why I haven't been updateing the LJ. Life hasn't been too bad lately ... as usual just trying to find my new nitch in this big world. This past weekend I did do something out of the ordinary , i went to a party at one of my managers house , this was a learning experience , I was kind of ( Read more... )

So they changed my hours at work , Now I work sunday thru thursday ; huh ,... I will have friday and saturdays off which will be nice , except this week when I still work friday because sunday will be my monday and there is honda production on saturday which someone volenteered me for so it looks like I wont have any days off this week , i'm not ( Read more... )

2 entries in one night, I know amazing right , well after I wrote the last one I have been spending sometime catching up on everones life , and when I read , Carolyns articles I cried , because I realize that I don't know anything that is going on in her life , and that I don't know how she feels about anything anymore , and that is very sad to me ( Read more... )