So, I haven’t updated in literally FOREVER. I guess I kinda felt like I grew out of it or something. I talked a lot more to everyone on a regular basis so it seems almost pointless to update about my life when everyone knows everything that is going on. The only other real reason to do so is to vent and speak my mind, but I have a husband for that ( Read more... )

It's been a little bit since I wrote in here. I have not only been without the time to do so, but not much need to vent or be angry, which is a good thing. I've been upset about things, but I've been able to work them out without writing it down ( Read more... )

Goodnight... may your dreams be sweet and your evening peaceful... the morning will bring great things...

So, today has been pretty craptacular. I got less than an hour's worth of sleep, mine and DJs friend Chris passed away in a car accident, I spent over 3 hours at the doctor getting poked at, I worked my ass off, even got in some overtime... now I'm pretty exhausted. I invited DJ to stay over at my house tonight so we can both fall apart together, ( Read more... )

My baby is sleeping soundly next to me and I find myself full of so many thoughts. It probably doesn't help that I just was dozing off and had a nightmare, but that's okay. I've been needing to really write in here anyway. This last week has been pretty hard. I've been sick and hurting in all kinds of ways. I feel so weak and helpless right now. ( Read more... )

Do you ever wonder how long in your life you will continue to revert back to that state in which you were once a naive child who thought nothing but goodness out of the world. Or the child who hid when her parents started yelling. Or the child who believed everything her parents told her... how far can you get in life without eventually end up in ( Read more... )

Alright, time to get out some anxiety and stress. Let me start off by saying that DJ is pissing me off. I really really really hate to get angry, but fuckin A, he's not giving me much choice. Why is he going to write me a mother fucking 7 page letter and spend half of it buttering me up and the other half tearing me down and trying to make me feel ( Read more... )

As it stands right now, I don't really have too much to say. I haven't really felt like writing all day, but seeing as my queues have completely gone dead, I have nothing else to do. I guess I better think of something to talk about really quickly. I've got to kill this last hour... hmm ( Read more... )

I almost started with that damn sigh again, but decided to just sigh out loud instead of typing it on the screen. And yet I somehow managed to devote a whole two sentence to it anyway, so I might as well have just fucking said it, huh ( Read more... )

*sigh*... I wonder how many times over the last 2 1/2 years I've opened my journal entry with a sigh of sorts, or a frustrated word or something. I think I do it so much because when I finally sit down to write something, I a) know it's going to take a lot out of me and/or b) it's been a long day and I know it already has taken a lot out of me. And ( Read more... )