Short fic. Ficlet fic. Prompt response to
comment_fic fic, but fic none the less!
Title: (Because I'm Such A) Selfish Man
Author:
ginzaiGenre: Gen, John POV, hurt!Dean, protective!Sam
Timeline: S1, about a month after Faith. Just pretend they went north, okay?
Rating: PG
Warnings: Bit of salty language. These are the Winchesters, after all.
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I love the thought of John fireman carrying Dean to the truck. I like too that John thinks about his past experiences with the boys and how it weighs on his mind.
It probably bothers him, but I don't know if he would change it. John is kind of tough that way.
Good job!
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I think John's a man of many talents, but demonstrating the softer sides of fatherhood isn't one of them. I think you're right that it bothers him, but I also think you're right that he probably wouldn't change. Unfortunately, for poor Sam and Dean!
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As for a Sam POV, I think that any attempt on my part wouldn't do it justice. For what it's worth, during the timeframe of his voicemails, he goes from weary to worried to frantic, before finally sliding to epically pissed off after Jim calls to let him know where Dean is at and that Dean is expected to make a full recovery. It's Winchester miscommunication at its finest. :)
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It makes sense too that he'd be mostly gruff and pissy in his concern for the scrapes his sons get themselves into. More his style, for sure.
I love hurt!Dean and concerned!Sam. :)
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Mind, he couldn't express that love and I think he had no idea the full extent of the damage he did or how poor his behavior was. It took YED exposing what Dean really thought about his place in the family for him to start to get an inkling and I still don't think he fully understood it. One of ( ... )
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I don’t know how far John thought things through about his sons, but I agree that his actions did not reflect what he felt. And you capture that well, by showing him loving, but also unfaltering, no matter how it affects his sons. Ending the piece with that message from Sam just underlines how uncaring he appeared to be, and how damageable his actions could be, and certainly were, especially to Dean.
Now, how about part 2 of “For the Grace”, hum? ^_^
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I get the impression that John flew by the seat of his pants more often than he'd like. He couldn't let himself think things through too much or he'd start to tally up the cost of his actions and that? Man, that would end him. Look how quickly he crumpled in 2x01 after the YED rubbed his face in exactly how sucktastic of a father he'd been - once his eyes were opened, he was absolutely devastated. I think he cared much more than he let on, but ultimately, he was a selfish man with a LOT of issues. Not selfish in his own right, but he put his quest above his family repeatedly, and Sam and Dean were both perfectly aware of where they stood in relation to the need to hunt down the thing that had killed Mary ( ... )
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John near kills me, I swear. He's got so many issues and he never fails to make things harder on himself then they've got to me. I really think that a lot of his problems with Sam were instigated by things like this - John thinking that they didn't need to know something and that being taken by his boys as him not caring. I like him a lot, but I think about how much better adjusted Sam and Dean would have been if John had opened up a bit more, and yeah. It's not exactly his shining moment.
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Sigh, yeah. He is largely responsible for their very needy and dependent relationship on each other.
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