I'll tell you why...

[gir_sammich]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about my cousin Chris.  About the questions surrounding his death.  About how, if I go the same way, people might ask the same questions.  The biggest one being "Why

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[samemaha]

Sarah,

You can get mad if you want... but I don't know the whole story. However, my husband is the same way. And I need to ask this question. Have you tried drugs? if not prescription, how about St. Johns Wort? It always worries me when I see these posts. I've had a lot of suicides in my life. As a human being, I do get worried, as a friend, it scares the piss outta me.

I'm not gonna tell you to snap out of it, or concentrate on the good things in life... I know people have tried that, and you don't want to hear it. I know it's not a choice you make to be depressed.

Whatever the outcome, I wish the best for you.

[gir_sammich]

I have tried drugs, actually. I've been on all kinds, from prescription to vitamin. Up until a couple days ago, I was taking Seroquel, which seemed to help the stress a little, but I got used to it so quickly. It's effect started to wear off and it wasn't even making me drowsy like it should

[xedrik]

You seem to mention stress a bit. Maybe it's not time for a change of medication, but for a change of lifestyle? What about life is stressing you out or dragging you down? Is it within your power to remove that from your life? Is it your job? Housing situation? Family? Friends? Making the move to a different job or a different city (or getting out of the city!) may require a change in lifestyle or living standards, but at this point, it sounds like really any change would have to be for the better, no?

Wishing you the best,
Xeddy /^|..|^\