Why you should not attempt online dating…(My story ( Read more... )

Well not surprisingly enough, I dreamed of Damian last night. He was extremely cruel and abusive . I was at his house and was sort of following him around in a way, I wanted to have sex with him or talk to him or both, and we kept ending up in different rooms and sometimes outside, this wasn't his house in reality but just represented it in my ( Read more... )

Well, good ol' D boy sent me spiraling downward and that's where I currently exist. Stupidass Byron and his high drama didnt help much, ugh... Nor did girl Sarah and her suicidal tendencies, codependency and jealousy! All these fucked up people don't help a highly sensitive depression-prone person like myself AT ALL! I'm about to throw my computer ( Read more... )

My son Nicholas was talking in his sleep and obviously having nightmares last night. At one point, he started crying so I said, "Nicholas wake up you're having a bad dream!" Then he started babbling. He said something about a baby and a playground and Daddy and Mommy. When I asked him to repeat it, he said ( Read more... )

What a splendid idea! Today at work Justin and I created our nemeses, characters that are the opposite of everything that we are. My antime is as follows (what shall I name her ( Read more... )

OK-- I feel better now that I just masturbated for the second time today. This has been a good weekend! Lots of outdoorsy time, exercise and even spent time with a new friend! Wooohoooooooooooooooo! It's getting better all the tiiime.

Last night I dreamed that I was in the military. We were storming a building to keep watch over some kind of meeting taking place in a field. I had a baby (Nicholas) with me and was hiding under furniture to dodge bullets. Turned out we didnt use any weapons, all was good, and so we left. Then, as I got in my truck, I realized I left my keys inside ( Read more... )

The worst is yet to come; if you think I'm whiney and pathetic now, you just wait! I plan on NOT calling or speaking or text messaging or Iming Damian for the rest of my life. Which means, every day for at least a month or two is going to be sheer misery. And I plan on writing in here as much as possible so that I don't torture too many people by ( Read more... )

Damian asks me "So youre not cummin up ?" And I textmessaged back "Nope" and then "Never." and he wrote back, "What???" and I wrote "I'm mad at you 4 using me." yeah, FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKK OFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!! >:o

I decided to change my daily affirmation from "Damian loves me" to "I hate you, Damian."