oh, man. i hate money woes. i had roughly 500$ in my account last week. i now have 50$. & most of it wasn't frivolous. just too much going on. i got a letter from my school loan saying i had a late payment. well, that'd be great & all if i hadn't paid something even when you never told me what i was supposed to be paying monthly. jerks. & my ( Read more... )

i don't know what i've been so hesitant to do the things i really want to do. am i afraid of response? i don't know if i really care or ever did. i am, however, officially going to be doing what i want to do. hmmph ( Read more... )

i have so many ideas. i wish the weather would coincide with my mood. it's so crappy out. not that i don't have enough rainy day music to fill it with, but still. a little sunshine wouldn't hurt. sunshine motivates me. i found a really cute desk. hopefully i'll get it. i bought a new journal. i'm thinking about making my own dresses. i don't know. ( Read more... )

ashley ording & christine castro are truly amazing girls. i've been vising their websites for probably four years now & i'm always inspired & amazed. i'd check their sites everyday for updates. i miss the days when i felt inspired & actually did something. now i feel like i'm just dreaming, just imagining what i wish i was doing. i love being ( Read more... )

so i'm not really sure what happened, but whatever the case it didn't happen like i'd planned. certainly not over the internet or however else. i don't know what i'm going to do ( Read more... )

i like red creme soda. i like big dogs. i like the way it smells after it rains. i like watching movies in the very early morning. i like mixtapes. i like the way giorgio armani cologne smells. i like distinctive laughs. i like rubbing my bare feet on the carpet. i like buying sunglasses i never wear. i love hershey kisses' dark chocolate. i like ( Read more... )

so i'm not really sure what's going on at this point. it's kind of confusing. i don't want to be misled & i don't want to be 'the other girl.' i like having my friends & i don't want silly feelings getting in the way. i'm not okay with that. i'd rather just have an awesome friendship with people than something that could hurt other people. but it ( Read more... )

does anyone else have those 'something's missing' moments? i'm pretty sure i know what it is, i just wish i didn't care. but the inevitable vday coming up & all of my friends have boyfriends/girlfriends, i feel like something or someone's missing. i'm happy with just about everything else in my life & i'm not necessarily looking for someone or ( Read more... )

hibbidy jibbidy.

i start my new job at julia's day spa on monday. i'm excitednervoushappyanxious all at once. for the first six months i'll be getting 8$/hr plus tips, then i'll move to probably 50% commission depending. anything under 850$/wk, you get 50$ commission. anything over, you get 60% which is a sweet freakin deal. i can't wait. at first ( Read more... )

i lost my freakin wallet. i had to cancel my target card (that recently was bumped up to a $500 credit line. woot woot & dangerous!). my freakin license is in there so i have to go get a new one. i probably had about 15$ in gift cards (if someone tries to use them they'll be very disappointed). & all of my insurance cards. that's going to suck ( Read more... )