god i havent posted in this for so long ( Read more... )

the bf. the never ending story of the bf ( Read more... )

just let go.

I need to end it but I can't. It aint working anymore. But i can't stop remembering the good times we had and i can't help thinking that I'll get them again. and this sucks. i'm afraid to let go, even though i know i should.

so stressed, so fucking stressed. everything matters so much more now. so stresssssssssssssssssssssssssssed out. i need a fucking miracle. i miss my success in high school. i didn't realize how good i had it.

what an emotional rollar coaster this weekend was. Thank god things worked out.

I can't get the fucker off my mind.

I need to study bio, despartley need to, and all i can think about is what an asshole he is.

damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life just blow out the ass right now. Had a huge fight with the bf. I don't know where we stand right now....if were broken up or just in the middle of a fight. I don't know where I stand. If I want this to be a break up or not. All I know is that I'm not getting what I want from him. And it sucks. He used to make me feel like I was the world. Now ( Read more... )

Feeling kinda blah today and i don't really know why. I have so much to do and I don't want to do it. Maybe I should have just been a nurse...that way my gpa wouldn't matter so much. And the bf is always on my mind. I am one of thoe girls who wants to see her bf everyday. Does that make me clingy? Or is it because its all still new in some sense. ( Read more... )

So everything is cool now with the bf and I've fallen hard once again. Yet i don't think he's as in love with me as I am with him. Things just feel different now. Its as if he knows he has me so hes not gonna do anything extraoridnary for me any more. I am so scared that I'm going to get my heart broken by him. Theres a 50-50 shot that he stays and ( Read more... )