today was perfect. you know what? it was just the type of day that megan would love and write about. [missyouuuuinfla]

a day on the boat at the lake. the smell of sun and sand and the spray of the sea as your hair whips in the wind. it was delightful and boring and perfect. i rode a jet ski and swam to the beach and let the waves crash over me. i ( Read more... )

well, i'm going to sound like i'm bipolar right about now, but..

today was perfect.

we were happy, natural, and ourselves--just minus the usual bickering and fighting.

i love you jenna :]

and i love ryan. and i know that it's going to be okay.

i hope it stays this way.

so, now would probably be the time to explain.

another stupid and pointless fight escalated and led to an actual breakup between ryan and i. i have never felt so completely awful in my entire life. i begged, pleaded, screamed, cried, and made a fool of myself. for the longest time, he would not hear it. i'm aware that we need to make some changes. ( Read more... )

i think a new beginning is exactly what ryan and i need. like i told him:
"i realize that we have never really changed, only thought we were changing"

needless to say, it was a very rough twelve hours, but it was probably necessary all the same. end of story.

bigger update tomorrow night when i'm less exhausted.

does absence really make the heart grow fonder?

ryan and i had an absolutely wonderful time together yesterday. i felt like i'd never stop crying when we had to say goodbye.

i know it's only ten days, but it feels like a lifetime without the certainty of those arms and that smile.

it's times like these that i couldn't be more sure of the love in my ( Read more... )

here's to goodbye...

oz: "guys, take a moment to deal this this. we survived."
buffy: "it was a hell of a battle."
oz: "not the battle. high school."

it's over.

life has been a big mess of changes lately, but i like it.

i moved into my grandparents' house and i'm graduating in a few days. prom? it was nice.

i'm beginning to realize that maybe it IS possible to "over do it"

...as evidenced by everything i have ever done in my WHOLEWIDELIFE.

i like being more relaxed. it works.

whores annoy me x498328424.

funny ( Read more... )

"Jack and Diane" painted a picture of my life and my dreams,
Suddenly this crazy world made more sense to me
Well I heard it today and I couldn't help but sing along
Cause everytime I hear that song...

I go back.

funny how last year's class song can make me feel so much about high school and graduating in such a short time. i don't think it's a ( Read more... )

we are a perfect little family, the four of us. grandma, grandpa, pumpkin, and i--we've become so incredibly close over the past month. she's the perfect little edition. and for some reason? i feel like she'll keep them from missing me too much while i'm away. but god, am i going to miss them. it's the only bad thought in my head.

i like feeling ( Read more... )

the details have become hazy, but i can still faintly recall your arms around me as i drifted off to sleep. guiding me to my room and tucking me in with such great care and loving intent; you are the best part of every bad day, and i owe you the world because of it. thank you for always being there ♥

oh, and steph--who else would talk me to sleep in ( Read more... )