What to write? What to think? Should I think at all or just sit here mindlessly and do nothing. I shouldn't be upset and I should be scared. I can't really tell if I am but I feel like I could be everything. I read all these things on the internet that have been wrote and although I don't know when they were wrote it still bothers me. I take ( Read more... )

I guess I'm going to try to keep up with livejournal. I don't really have the time but I might as well right. So the past two weekends I've been camping. Christy and I went with her mom and dad to stockton and then down to my dad's. This past weekend we were suppose to go to K.C. for Pride Fest but my grandma didn't feel like going. We are ( Read more... )

So I've found a site that I like better than live journal so if anyone is interested in reading anymore check me out at www.xanga.com.

So I have seen Christy everyday the past week or maybe two weeks. It's been great. I kind of feel like we need at least a day apart. Friday we got in a fight over my necklace missing. I looked all night for it because I didn't want her mad at me but I just ended up making her more mad at me. She talked to her mom on the phone and told her ( Read more... )

I'm not sure where I left off last time I wrote so I'm just going to start where I feel I should. This song always reminds me of christy. It's exactly how I feel about her. I feel like we have spent every moment possible together and it has been great. Yesterday we went to Jeff City just us. We turned our phones off and didn't worry about ( Read more... )

This past weekend was awesome. I had more fun that I've had in a long time. It all pretty much started thursday. I got a message from Christy around 11:30 or 12. She said she really need someone to talk to so I called her. She was really upset and just completely depressed. I talked to her for about two hours on the phone before I was passing ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I've wrote but I haven't really been home enough to do anything. I've been trying to keep myself busy so I don't think about Christy and although I don't think of her as much, I still have her constantly in my head. I really do miss her with all my heart. I did get to see her friday night. I rented a motel room for us to ( Read more... )

Saturday night I did really have any plans. I mess around with my car after I spent time with my mom. Brain was working in the garage putting his cd player in. Sandy was there and the were drinking. I was just watching and helping out whenever I could until my phone rang. It was Christy. I answer the phone and on the other end came her sweet ( Read more... )

Crappy, Confused, drained, depressed, stressed, blank, bored, exhausted, frustrated, gloomy, indescribable, lonely, restless, sad, scared and tired. This is how I feel. I don't know what to do cause all I have to do is sit around and wait. Wait for what...for christy to call, for christy to e-mail me back, for christy to just send me a message ( Read more... )

I got to talk to Christy almost all morning. It was great. She misses me and wanted me to come down but I couldn't leave work. I want to go down there so bad but we did say that we would wait till sunday to see each other so maybe it's a good thing I couldn't go down there. I'm surprise that I've had a lot of fun the past few days even being as ( Read more... )