i dont deserve happiness. i dont deserve a roof over my head. i dont deserve friends. i dont deserve love. i dont deserve anything at all.

its my birthday and all i feel today is sad and broken and worthless.

Tonight feels like a delete-a-ton-of-old-entries-night. Meh.

Hey... Anyone use LJ anymore?

I'm leaving this entry unlocked.  Maybe someone interesting will friend me.

Maybe I'll have some motivation to update this thing more often.

Hmmm.

Here, as promised, is my father's obituary.

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We are going to have a private family funeral tomorrow afternoon.
But people are Welcome to come to the memorial service at our church on Saturday at 1pm. Our church is St. Johns/St. Ann's in Albany, and it's on Franklin St.
I will post the obituary here when it is ready.

I do not even know how to start this entry.
It has been a very painful day for me and my family.

I'm semi-certain some of you know by now.
So I am just going to say it.

My father passed away sometime this morning. They think he had some sort of cardiac arrest in his sleep.

I cannot even begin to describe what I'm going through. Every part of me ( Read more... )

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