i wanna go home

im a liar
im not real

there isn't enough room to breathe and i feel like i'm drowning. i can't keep doing this

i haven't been truthful in so long that sometimes, i think i start to believe my lies. im not sure where the lies end and i begin...or if there is even a me. i dont remember who that person is. im not sure i ever knew ( Read more... )

so, i've met someone else. and he's beautiful. and he's sweet. and we went out and it was amazing. never a lull in conversation. and we went out again. and it was better....and then tonight was fucking unbelievable. three dates in one week. and i've never felt so serene. and his eyes are blue....i love boys with blue eyes. we're going out ( Read more... )

Well, I have lost you; and I lost you fairly ( Read more... )

so i'd been making plans to have the house all to myself this weekend....and get a little alone time with myself, i guess. i haven't had much of that lately. i made all the prelim plans for a fri. night alone---junk food, videos, yum new body wash and bubble bath. but..............it didn't happen ( Read more... )

THOSE THREE DAYS--Lucinda Williams ( Read more... )

i paid your ransom with my own bood--restitution of a sort. but how do you determine the going price on human life? on a life that never was? i wanted to love you, or i thought i did. but i couldn't see you as anything more than a parasite and me---the reluctant host. my first, my last, just one night. to you, with this scarlett cocktail, i ( Read more... )

tonight was......great.

i called out of work (boohoo...im so irresponsible. but i did have someone cover for me), and sara cooked for me again. she was overly concerned about my well being. apparently i've been quiet this week. wtf? she notices things like that? after assuring her everything was fine, we had a very nice evening. hmm, i ( Read more... )

why the fuck do i have such an obsessive personality?

since feeling is first ( Read more... )