my parents just saw my scars on my wrist.. blah.

sam is going to kill himself, its my fault. i love him too much, and i care for him better than myself but i cant be with him. i cant. he's going to do it. i know it. its my fault.

i'm happy today. It seems like the less i like sam the happier i get. hmm this is nice. I actully felt like i had a brain today. I miss these feelings.
Hopefully by tomorrow it'll be over. I met a new "friend" today. His name is Noe. He complimented me. yay.

i want my emotions to grow, get stronger, for it feels like im not just waisting my time.

UGLY GIRL HAS A HAIRY BOYFRIEND. AND NOW, ALL OF A SUDDEN, SHE'S HOT. WTF?

i've gotten a lot more "complements" about being "hot" ever since i was with "sam". yeah i'm still with that dude. but i dunno what to do now. He killed me.

immm having guy troubles and i dunno what to do or whats right or shall i just give up all together and focas on school and wait until i get into HS. okkk first it was just sam and he's asking for a second chance, then alex got some wierd idea that i liked him and he;s been telling EVERYONE that we're together and i guess i just gotta break him but ( Read more... )

welllll kristen i guess to amuse you or something i'll will continue to write in this dreaded thing because your the only one who reads anyway, sooo thank you for pretending like your interested ( Read more... )

yes i am. or people think i am. or what they get out of me is that, horrible ( Read more... )

strider4187 (5:59:55 PM): i love you soooo much
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go figure.

im in total disagreement with everything now. I dont think its worth it anymore. im in this only to get hurt and i hide it from myself. i dont want to believe it. i was better off.

watch thirteen, its kick ass.