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[givemesometruth]

ok so Megan disowned her "entire homeless, loser family". And Chelsea, I dont even know who she is anymore. She is so hateful towards me and I can't even talk to her without getting snapped at. I honestly went through a lot these past few weeks and the whole time I never cried, until today. I shouldn't let a 15 year old even get to me but it's not

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[astrophunk311]

I LEFT BECAUSE I CANT DO THAT SHELTER SHIT AGAIN.
not because I dont believe in you. I KNOW you guys will get out of this. You always do.
But it really hurts me that you dont want to know me anymore. Your taking everything I did an a personal offense. and im telling you. I did not leave because of YOU. why is it so hard for you to understand that I really dont want to do that again?
I wasnt helping you guys. Your being ubderstandng about chelsea leaving and not even getting mad at her for it. shes doing that same thing I did. I just didnt wanna do that again.

[givemesometruth]

I wish you wouldnt take all of this so personal. I understand you don't want to do it again. Who ever said I hated you and want nothing to do with you? I don't talk to you cuz Im busy and have shit on my mind. This shit takes up all of my time and my entire brain. And I am not mad at Chelsea cuz she has to get to school everyday. And I was only mad at you cuz of the things you said to me afterwards and you actually leaving only hurt because the whole time you acted like you were with us and you never told me how much it bothered you until AFTER you left. I just feel I was being lied to. Don't have to reply to this cuz I won't see it for a while but if you need me I'll be at the nasty stank dirty hotel we were at last time :*(

[astrophunk311]

All I can say is:
I want to help.
what can I do.
if its making phone calls or talking to churches.
I dont care.
I want to help.

[fuzzienav3l]

Dude.. Ur so taking it all the wrong way. Im just saying i already fucked up enough, its just i dont believe in myself.. If i went to the shelter i know my life would just get more fucked up. I fucked up sooo bad by this whole school thing and now i have to work my assoff, & I cant do that going through all this shit.

[astrophunk311]

then why is it so hard to understand that I too fucked up hardcore and its really hard to get shit back on track through shit.
Even though I left the house, i didnt leave you guys.
even as much as you hate me chels Im still here for you too.
I didnt think when I left that I would be losing people. I thought everyone understood me, but now I know that everyone thought I was just being spoiled and snobby, when you guys KNOW im niether of those things. I understand why you cant stay but I also understand why mallory has to. if my mom wouldnt have had hannah and tj in the salv.army i wouldnt have left her...and thats the exact situation mallory is in. no one else is gonna help your mom (I know that even though you want to, there isnt much you can do) but that still leaves mal with no choice but to help madukes.

I dont want you guys to hate me.
reguardless of who i live with....
you guys are still all I have.
and I will literally kill myself if i have to lose that

[fuzzienav3l]

I NEVER said i hated you. Well at least not since u left lol. I dont mind it. U had to do ur thing.

[givemesometruth]

Why are both of you acting like your the only ones who have to go to school and get good jobs.
I have to do that too

AND I have to do this shit.
And Im not taking anything the wrong way. Im talking about the way you talk to me, the way you scream at us the way you act like u run the world
it hurts my feelings and it's also just not cool.

[beach182bum]

Mal, I've been reading your journals for a while now and I can hardly believe what I read sometimes. I'm sorry for everything you're going through, and if you ever need anything please know that I'm here for you. We were good friends at one point, and I'm always here for you, so don't think you're going through this alone, just let me know.. We can hang out, or, well I don't know do anything to get your mind off things, I miss you and I'm sorry about all of this. You have a really big heart to be doing all of this and sticking with your mom and I respect that because it seems so hard. I wish I could do something to help you out more. Anyways, if you can, call me ok?
Love,
Courtney

[givemesometruth]

I love you

call Oprah for me... tell her i need a house.

[beach182bum]

awww
next time it snows I'll build you an igloo right outside my house and we can be neighbors:)

what what, Oprah ain't got shit that

[astrophunk311]

I MISS YOU