2008. another year starts as the anxiety, excitement, and butterflies persist. i'm standing in front of another clean slate. i have all the paint and supplies i could ever need, now all i have to do is paint the masterpiece. maybe even frame it when finished, and hang it where others can feel it breathe ( Read more... )

the fish i mentioned in the last entry died. chels opened the window and he froze to death. it took us two weeks to dispose of his body, and it's taken us a month or two to finally conquer the dishes we have piled up. the trash is in a four bag pile in the middle of our room. we may or may not be disgusting as fuck ( Read more... )

my life is great right now. we have a fish named tipsy, who pretty much stares at me all day and looks really sick and unhappy, but i really think he's just scrawny. that's hip for humans, why not for beta fish? we feed him, but most of the time he just chews up the nibblets and spits them back out into mushy piles he eats later. i've been graced ( Read more... )

i deleted that last entry because i need to stop thinking so deeply. i'm going to live in the absolute present and stop sucking the life out of myself. questioning all the shit i can;t answer is a terrible thing to do. it gets you no where and is very unsettling ( Read more... )

today, at 9 in the morning, i received this text message:

"Fwd: Fwd: Sex is like nike- just do it. Dick is like gatorade- is it in u? Pussy is like wendys- tastes great even late. This txt is like an std so pass it onfirst of all, i won't "just do it" but thanks for the peer pressure and that roofie you slipped in my drink, creep. secondly, if you ( Read more... )

i really need to lose some weight. i'm going to create a mildly regimented diet schedule and try to go on jogs a few times a week. i realized that i am supposed to be at my peak physical condition @ 18 years old, and i most certainly am not. i need to exercise at least a half an hour every day so that i don't feel the effects of fatty/lazy syndrome ( Read more... )

i received a package from my dear mother today that contained the following surprises: three caramel apples all spigotted and wrapped up, two checks from tj maxx that i didn't even know existed (totaling approximately $250), a painting my niece allison made me (lots of multicolored polka dots with two sloppily painted signs that look like the ( Read more... )

man talks in his sleep."is this it?-- emptiness echoes shatters and-- boom ( Read more... )

i'm having a hard time finding reason to stay on campus during the weekends. all i want to do is see everyone i already know, and i don't ever feel like meeting new people i should get to know. the further away i am, the more i feel like i'm missing out on, even though in the realistic lobe of my brain, i know i'm not missing out on many "group ( Read more... )

to pull off a 4.0 this semester.

just a thought.