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im outta here.

i was hoping you might change your mind.

tentative, reluctant. i am constantly reminding myself how bad it got a few months ago so i dont let it get like that ever again. or, at least, if it does ever get bad, i can look back and remember that i got through the worst. by the end of 2008, a year that was up to that point amazing, i had....actually, nevermind, i just want to forget this one ( Read more... )

kinda like giving birth to your internal organs, miles of intestines. or that tree outside you used to climb when you were drunk and jump off into the pool, with all the roots. you could see it growing that night, sinister faces in the leaves, unfurling talons ( Read more... )

the weirdest part of tonight was going back to the apartments my mother and i lived as a little girl-my friend lives a few a few doors down from where i lived-and getting the strangest flashbacks, not just from what occured in those apartments, but mostly stemming from a dream i had a week or two ago having to do with me being in that old apartment ( Read more... )

i hope it stays dark forever, i hope the worst isn't over.
i hope you blink before i do, i hope i never get sober.
and i hope when you think of me years down the line, you can't find one good thing to say.

and i hope you die
i hope we both die

this time last year i was new ( Read more... )

i honestly loved him and thought it would work. and it's all my fault. i deserve this ( Read more... )

estelle, ma belle ( Read more... )