FUCK.

I'm not straight edge anymore. Nothing else to say really. Well, there's a lot but it usually just stays inside my head.

My Grandpa Pablo has Parkinson's disease. Besides being the disease and joke that Michael J. Fox has it is a degenerative disease of the brain that often impairs motor skills, speech, and other functions. He has shakes and needs help getting out of his chair. Oftentimes he falls over just standing. I came pretty close to tears after hearing about ( Read more... )

Problems with everything.

and now again a new void is here

As time goes on I get increasingly more annoyed with parties. I get sick of the alcohol, the smoking. I think I'm getting more closeminded as time passes as well. I've been straight edge for 8 years or so now, woohoo go me. No one even cares about these things anymore. I never did it to find a sense of belonging or to be in some sort of clique. 99 ( Read more... )

This year was one of the worst and best.

Fuck resolutions. I'm more into life changes.

Loving the snow.
Loving the girl.
Loving Christmas.
Love playing shows.
Loving having money again.

I think I'll be living in an apartment in Port Orchard soon.

Merry Christmas!

Content and afloat.

When I look back and reflect on my life I think about only specific times when I was happy. The rest are void of importance now. Everything up until now were just trials and quizzes leading up to this test I suppose. I don't feel ready for this but I hope I am prepared. I hope to better myself because even though I am told otherwise . . . I am ( Read more... )