i'm sleepy. really sleepy. i haven't been sleeping very well as of late, and that really kind of sucks. i found my other journal though, becky got it for me for x-mas, it's purdy. it's got a fairy on it. sometimes, physically writing things down is a lot more relaxing than typing. anywho, life's been kind of crazy lately. what with moving and the ( Read more... )

so. Tim (becky's husband) is a piece of shit. he cheated on my sister. she kicked him out. so now i'm moving in with her. if she takes him back, i will not speak to her. i'm not going to sit there and continue to support her if she takes him back again. i hate everything and everyone. i've got too much shit going on right now. and all my mom's done ( Read more... )

this time of year is very confusing. on the one hand, it's supposed to be full of happiness, spending time with friends and family, appreciating what we have, and writing letters to a big fat man in a red coat for things we want. it's about big turkeys, fights over the crunchy part of the stuffing, hot chocolate on cold nights and snuggling in ( Read more... )

I believe that's a mortal sin. I'm pretty sure that the Bible says that "ye must sleep in on Black Friday, lest ye recover from thine food coma" or something to that effect. Maybe if I actually read the bible I'd know these things. Then again I'd probably just burst into flames. Anyway... So yesterday was a lot of fun. I ate too much, had a stomach ( Read more... )

nothing appeals to me any more. i feel ok, i just don't feel. it's like i'm on autopilot. there are a few things going on right now that should be upsetting to me. but they're not. i don't know if that's good or bad. on the one hand, i'm not sitting here stressing and felling bad over it. on the other, i know i should be. i should give a shit about ( Read more... )

so becky's getting divorced. about time already. so she's selling a bunch of her jewelry. one of the rings she wants to sell just so happens to be my grandmothers wedding ring. its' been in the family for a very long time. and she wants to sell it. FUCK HER. my mom took it. if push comes to shove, i'll buy it from her. it's our grandmothers wedding ( Read more... )

actually, not really. too much blubber. it's kinda gross. Jason's trying to distract me. It's only partially working. i'm a jerk like that. hehe. i swiped his mom's computer so i figured i should do something productive. i just got fondled. aah! ^_ ( Read more... )

i had a shitty dream the other morning. yesterday morning to be exact ( Read more... )

i am so fucking sick of people treating me like a child. i'm 19 years old. i do not need several different people telling me what to do and what not to do and some assholes dragging me into a problem that isn't mine or that has nothing to do with me. here's a novel idea: fucking deal with it. if you have a problem with someone, address it with the ( Read more... )

so i'm feeling weird today. scatterbrained. depressed. anxiety's bothering me. this sucks. i sincerely do not feel like dealing with my emo bullshit right now. why can't i just be happy and accept it for what it is without worrying about all the "what ifs". my head hurts and i just want to go to sleep tonight. i don't feel like going anywhere, but ( Read more... )