"The trees have been stirred of all thier yellow leaves,
making gold brick roads that since childhood i have not seen,
and others still cling to blood red autumn,
but soon too, all of them will have fallen"

my thoughts on the way home today, thought i'd put them down. got here and emily was sitting on my porch smoking. Of course this made me happy ( Read more... )

waiting for my myth class at 630 has proven incredably boring and unhappy because of sickness this quarter. got about an hour, trying to kill some time. i was thinking as i lounged in tuc today, sleeping rather soundly for a bit and then i nand out of that palce of deep thought where it almost because real images in your head. or.......more real ( Read more... )

i skipped school again...i'm in some shit in my classic civ class but not un repairable....but emily came over today to keep me company. my dad was in hospital today seeing if there was a serouis problem with his heart and i was alittle.....well...i wasn't feeling well myself and so that being added on and my mom's unbearable sense of worry being ( Read more... )

it will say amelia on my grave. Carved into some grey stone in a small plot. It probally won't be very big, just a little plaque like stone sunken in the grass, with the small blades reaching up around the monument. I don't really think about death much. But i do think about how much will really be held in that dash between the dates on my single ( Read more... )

i went a whole summer without saying your name
i went a whole summer without saying your name
but i didn't have to say it to think it
to dream
wake up so dissapointed everyday
that i didn't do what i did in my sleep
amanda, amanda, i'll never forget your middle name
amanda, amanda, i'll never forget your middle name
as right as everything was in ( Read more... )

stupid docters visit today. didnt get nothing ha. i will though. nexium has to be cleared 0o0o0. told him about anxieties....he said if this med dont work to come back pronto. he's a good guy. it must be amazing to be a docter. really fucking amazing ( Read more... )

my dad's having minor surgery in about an hour, i got a docters apointment in two hours and my moms got one tommrow plus a dentist appointment on saterday. fucking shit man. imagine if we were born like three hundred years ago. my whole family would be dead by now i swear ( Read more... )

got a big ball of cliches ( Read more... )

so i've been going down hill. it's true. i live well for some one struggling. i don't think people notice. i hate this.......one of the things i hate most about this thing inside me.....is that it makes me fit sterotypes i've watched so many act and fake to. the troubled rock star, the depressed writer. god what a big fucking ball of cliche. but i ( Read more... )

annie hall is a tight movie. might be one of my faverite ending lines in any movie. hmm....thought i had more to write but i dont and i need to study. bye.....

~tommy