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Yup yup yup. More than one person has asked me go back home (el paso) i just can't though. i mean i am used to it here by myself. I am lonley 90 percent of the time but i just can't go back. yvette said it wouldn't mean i failed i could live on my own and this and that. the first week working third shift at my new job, had as fucken hell. The ( Read more... ) -
New Years, New things, New everything
Yup 2009. Got a new job, pay a lot more. Have a great boyfriend, he just might be the one. Mom still doesn't accept him, but they aren't dating him, i am. He is so weird, he makes me feel like a queen. He respects me, never tells me no and most of all he trusts me. He has never doubted me and taking by how many times he calls or text he ( Read more... ) -
Update
So where do I begin. I feel like a complete loser when its like wtf deanna. Anywho I mean it sucks cause how can you like something so much that you are willing to devote so much thought into it..right? Well like people who spend so much time with someone it would make sense but someone who you kind of knew? Oh well. I think about my life up ( Read more... ) -
First Cut is the deepest
Sadly almost always true. I mean he is my real first for almost everything and i just can't let go of him for the life of me. As anna put it "we all have one person we go stupid for" and he is the one i literally go stupid for. I feel like an idiot for everything i have done, but i can't help it. I see Denise same thing you just do what you ( Read more... ) -
wow its been a while
so much has happened to me in the past few months its hard to say. This week has been kind of a wake up call like a slap in the face kind of thing. Face one, i might be drinking too much and i liek to drink so i am afraid of my future and alcohol eek!. Two last night i had a dream about Adam but it isn't a dream i ever felt about him at all so i ( Read more... ) -
weird
i never write on my journal and how did people know i am writing in them again? no idea. its either manny or adam writing it cause sharon has a a livejournal and she knows i write in it cause shes my friend...but that seems really low of them if it is one of them...and i was like maybe corina? but that doesn't seem likely at all.... i mean eveyone ( Read more... ) -
going out
has been happening....a lot....now! lol i go out almost 2 to three times a week. i mean i tell everyone no i'm not going out then last minute someone calls me and i am like okay and leave lmao. even if its at 1 or 2 in the morning. i feel horrible! cause yeah its not good to drink that much and spend money on it...although...since guys are ( Read more... ) -
weird
last comment someone left that was anonymous....and called me a fat bitch..haha all cool...anywho what goes around comes around so either you are a fat bitch or later in life you will become a fat bitch..but it seems you already got the bitch part so just fat :D ( Read more... ) -
So...
I haven't posted in such a long long time! maybe i should it do more...write my feelings whats going on..which is super sad cause it isn't much..if any lol yeah just been super sad cause it is that time of the month :[ haha yeah you know what i mean girls ;>. anyways yeah work is cool registered for classes just need to go pay them. um...i feel ( Read more... ) -
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FUCK YOU LEO! I DIDN'T DO SHIT TO MAKE YOU FUCKEN HATE ME! i am not a fucken whore and sleep with rich guys! fuck friends they fucken screw up your fucken emotions. they dont give a flippen fuck about them or care what you do with them. you might as well fucken slight my wrist and write you letters with my blood because you can't find a pen ( Read more... )