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i spent this new years eve at a house show in crown heights in brooklyn with like 20 people i barely know and it was probably the best new year's i've ever had. i think it sets the bar for the year to come. from now on the only social life i have is one that involves things that interest and benefit me, and alcohol really no longer does. music and ( Read more... )

it's funny how things click right into perspective when you take yourself out. i left home like 4 days ago, i've mentally faced like 20 existential dilemmas and sought solutions. its like clockwork. although, recently managing stress is like a big problem for me. i am so tense and nothing can keep me calm. i do know that in 2009 i am cutting a lot ( Read more... )

i feel guilty then i remember that some people have no redeemable qualities. i love my little sister. allison and i want to take her to new york before christmas to pick up danny. man, i would love for her to see new york like we do ( Read more... )

i've done more to fuck things up for myself in the last 2 years than i can even fully acknowledge and i'm sick of it. everything is going to change for me. i'm done with booze, and i'm sure that some of you have heard that from me more than once, but i'm serious about it this time. everything going wrong in my life right now can somehow be traced ( Read more... )

it sucks that my band seems so dysfunctional. i miss being in a band with 3 people who are just as committed as i am. there is always someone who is dragging everything down and i don't really know what to do to fix it.

i'm not really wide awake. if i can suddenly get wide awake, then today i'll get a lot done. last night was okay, i think that a lot of people make me uncomfortable and thats why i'm reluctant to get close to most people. it's funny how people like that polarize people like reena or allison. because a few people make me feel unbelievably ( Read more... )

it's one of those nights where it's starting to get late and my brain is running around and my surroundings are so stagnant and i can sense that i won't sleep without serious chemical assistance. or a guitar here. i hate those nights ( Read more... )

there is a last minute show at cave9 tomorrow night and i would really like it if everyone could try and come. this band delay from columbus is playing, and they are driving straight to gainesville so the more gas money/people there to watch them the better, obviously. i'm playing too and so is drew from spells. its 5 bucks and starts at 7-8ish ( Read more... )

i made a mix in my itunes for someone else, for myself. i guess its a compilation about someone, for me to listen to. and i can't stop listening to it. it seems like a strange concept, but maybe it isn't.