i just need sad bastard music and no alcohol ever again. that's actually totally not true at all ( Read more... )

oh my god. thinking about the kind of night i had last night, simultaneously with the night i will inevitably have tonight is like unfathomable. i'm pushing my limits.

i guess misanthropy just works for some people. or peoples, as my history professor would put it. haven't seen his ass in 2 weeks. i guess college just doesn't work for some people.

i need gin and really great company tonight.

i'm playing the show tonight now..everyone should come. everyone should come anyways, but i'm playing at 6 sharp.

i feel like i'm swimming against a current. maybe i just expect a lot out of myself, or maybe i have a chip on my shoulder but either way lately i can't help but feeling like i have so much faith in something no one else cares about. like jets to brazil. or the third godfather movie. i mean, i love jets to brazil, maybe thats my problem ( Read more... )

i have a good feeling about the rest of the year.

we all do things and we all say things and we all think things and its all getting to be overwhelming, to the point where i just want to exist in another universe or something. there is this part in 'ghost world' when enid says something about how only stupid people have good relationships. i really think that must be true, with almost any kind of ( Read more... )

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everything in my life has become so detailed. i can't think without incense burning and i can't sleep for more than an hour without chemical assistance. i feel too impatient for simple minds and too abrasive for sensitivity or compassion. i feel like there is a proverb for this feeling ( Read more... )

i'm seriously just gonna start my own dance party. ragging on kgtd is almost expected by anyone in this city with a cynical bone in their body, but i think the idea of it is pretty cool. i'd just like to have my own, where i could pick the music and location, which would hopefully filter the crowd a bit. i talked about this last night, but i don't ( Read more... )