I bought a couple cd's the other day. Death cab for cutie's photo album and System of A Down's mesmerize. The death cab for cutie album is cool, but right now i'm blasted into a world of short lipped descriptions, with disco after shave, and humanitarian messages. This is what I've been wating for ( Read more... )

strictly confidential,
so tell me in a nutshell,
that doesn't fall to pieces,
the army won't eat pheces,
i wrather much would love to,
but haven't got the time through,
january february march april may,
how many years must i count everyday.

i'm so sick of sitting in the save me spot. Its real. A small country of people who are waiting to be saved. When a knight in shinig armor comes a long, the shine blinds us to belive they can do for us what we can not do for our selves. Wow. As I wrote these last two lines, i hear quotes from something all to familiar. come on and, save me.

subtle things about pictures can bring so much anxiety
sometimes I wish the ones who love me would stop trying see,
i think its easy to be me, but hard to be anyone else
so when I step into a resteraunt I'm all embaressment, pill
suggests to me he'll be with me make colors my enlightening
but if i take, then i will brake, because my heart dark with

I'm going insane thinking about going back to school. I hate school sooo much. What I hate are the manditory class' I'll take- History, English, Math. I'm not going to college to transfer to a different school, I'm going to take psychology and sociology to apply it to my lyrics. So why take the class' that aren't what I wan't to do with my life? I ( Read more... )

I beg my slef in hard moments to be like the soldiers of war. If they can handle the cracking hand of war's stress, whats the small things like going to college and driving a car. I feel like I'm at war, All Of The Time: conversations, jobs, transportation, communities, everything is a war, but probably, online. War all the time, war all the time, ( Read more... )

Probably everybody loves doing things they love, that they haven't done for a long time. Thats what I've been doing with my free time: listening to old music. Its such stress relife. The police, coolio, Jimmy Eat World, At the Drive-in, Bad Religion, Sublime, Blink 182, even thursday and brand new bring burried feelings back to life. These undead ( Read more... )

We'll walk the river for years, because it sacrafices for what could be tears ( Read more... )

I'm enjoying being back at this house in san anselmo. Its about coming from a run down room with one all wooden chair and a top bunk bed to luxurious couches and chairs and COMPUTERS! PRIVACY! I can show however long I want, I can watch t.v loud, listen to my music loud. Oh its great. Thats all for now, as I settle down here.

I wont' be on for a while. I've been using the internet at a house I'm sitting for. I'll be back in two weeks.