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I like to watch documentaries and shows on youtube because I don't have a TV or Netflix. I was watching something on history and differences in capital punishment in various parts of the world and then on the side of "recommended videos" there was something that was very unsettling. When they have videos, there is always a still image of a scene ( Read more... )

Write a sentence. Delete. Write a word. Delete.

Hunt the mind for words. Any. Nothing. Empty. Read and try to write. Empathize, love. Interact. Nothing.

A little less human, each day.

How to Disappear
by Amanda Dalton

First rehearse the easy things.
Lose your words in a high wind,
walk in the dark on an unlit road,
observe how other people mislay keys,
their diaries, new umbrellas.
See what it takes to go unnoticed
in a crowded room. Tell lies:
I love you. I'll be back in half an hour.
I'm fine.

The childish things.
Stand very still behind ( Read more... )

I'm in so much pain from laxatives. It hurts so much. It's times like these that remind me of how much I need treatment...and not just treatment. Treatment on its own is not enough. I need to let go ( Read more... )

The kitten came back. I put out a box with towels and a pink sock monkey in case he wants to sleep there ( Read more... )

Preparing to purge. My "last time" for a little while ( Read more... )

I am oddly very proud of myself today. I ate pretty normally.

( calories and such )

I got an interview for a job in Chicago, which is a joke because I know I'm not going to get it. So here I go, wasting my time...

"You know, I sure wish I could answer that question for you but I can't because I never paid attention in classes.  However, I can tell you what K ate on various occasions for lunch during class because I obsessively like ( Read more... )

98.4. Two or so weeks ago, wasn't I 92? Ridiculous. I am fucking ridiculous ( Read more... )