well alright, i haven't blogged in awhile but i feel like i gotta get something off my chest, i used to think i was cold and distant, mean whatever you want to call it, but the more i look at it people in general are distant one minute someone claims they need you the next they are out of your life, it doesn't really make sense...

-sigh-

please someone save me, i'm too conflicted i may have made a mistake or could be making a mistake i think it's the latter. i want it all but i made a desicion i couldn't do whatever i wanted, i don't understand life i think sometimes love is scarifice sacrifice either yourself or what you want it's willing to lose things that you like a lot be ( Read more... )

well i'm back from a long break, i stil love my live journal very much.., i just spoil my myspace too much *hides in shame*...last night wa sthe halloween/andrews party wasn't too bad some pretty funny moments i went as a mildly slutty nurse...i procrastinate too much, and evidently drink too much coffee, i lost a half inch this past month...* ( Read more... )

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well, my current icon says a lot about me (no i didn't make it) i thought i was so ( Read more... )

a lot of things have changed and i really mean that i'm not going to enter some huge rant about how i've been thwarted by love how horrible my life is because personally i'm sick of my sadness... a lot of things have happened recently that really made me ( Read more... )

i was reading over my old entries and i must say live journal , i heart you and thank you for being there for me in all my sleepless nights...and a shout out to Christina for being awesome and showing me how to make an lj...i've been going through some things lately that left me feeling emotionally ruined, there were some friends who i realized ( Read more... )

dear life,
please stop sucking.
sincerly,
dev


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well, let's see track has begun and i feel dead already...i feel like i just need to chill out and relax life has been screwing with me lately ...i really have been confused but if i've learned anything...there are  elevators in life (really crappy analogy  ahead)  there are some elevators  that will never open  no matter how long you wait,no ( Read more... )