i don't know what i am doing wrong, but i do know that i hate this feeling. is all of this even worth my time? maybe everything you said the other night had some truth in it.

yesterday was boring. i was bored all day.

today has been boring. i have been bored all day.

last night i dressed up in my mom's 1978 california cheerleading uniform. it was super rad.

i'm not really a cheerleader.

i had an interview at joann's fabrics yesterday. i really really really hope they hire me.

now i am going to go eat eat eat.

i have a thing with words. i really really like them. especially crossword puzzles. and especially the ny times crossword puzzle.

but.

i hate hate hate some words. moist and nibble...those words are disgusting.

i feel like i actually slept last night. it is a good feeling ( Read more... )

season premiere of 24=awesome.

the day went by really slowly.

i still don't have a job. i still don't have any money.

yesterday was awful. i felt like a bad person all day. i hope i'm not a bad person.

today was boring. i did go shopping with audrey and we bought marigold tights from zushy. that was fun. but other than that i have been
bored
bored
bored

anyway. i think i am okay. i just feel kind of bad.

friday was my last time in drumline. it was fun and all, but i am ready for it to be over. the base drum is way too heavy anyway ( Read more... )

wednesday was awful. it was a sad day. i went out to eat with jess, anna, patti, and robin...it was sad because now that cc is over i am not really going to see them. and then we had pictures for cc...and schmaltz (my coach) hugged me and cried...so then i tried to find a job. i applied to carlos o'kellys and wheatsfield. i hope wheatsfield hires ( Read more... )

elliott smith committed suicide.

i think that is super sad.

i just finished my last cross country race. ever. six years of the sport and i am done. it is a weird feeling. i was super sad yesterday but while i was running today (and not doing very well) i remembered how much i actually hate running while i'm running. now that i am done i think maybe i do like it...but i feel okay about never having to run ( Read more... )