well i can't explain it. but i guess things seem better bw richard and i. back to almost normal. i mean he seems that he is still feeling things for me i'm just scared that he's going to do it again. i don't know what to do. im afraid if i leave him that he'll want to come back but if i don't that he's going to do this all over again and this is ( Read more... )

I have no idea where to even start. I went out of town for a week. To visit dad and stuff. The day before I left it was great between Richard and I. Then I came back and he has gone into his PTSD mood and he's not into a relationship right now. My heart is broken. But, we talked, and we decided to go back to the way we were in the beginning ( Read more... )

I dont know why. I just seem to get so irritated when I'm around my mom. I feel like i'm 16 all over again and everything she says is just like nails on a chalkboard to me and I don't want to hear it at all. I feel bad for thinking and feeling that but I can't help it right now for some reason. I just want to leave and not come back here for a ( Read more... )

Well im just laying here in bed thinkin. I can't imagine things being any better right now. At first when richie and I had the conversation about taking time apart I thought it would be horrible and I had this stupid feeling that he would lose his feelings for me if he wasn't near me. But actually its gotten so much better. He tells me he misses ( Read more... )

well. a couple of things have happened recently that i guess i must get off my chest.  i was so rediculously upset by the fact that richie's neighbor committed suicide.  and he was comptely correct in the fact that i need to get over it and move on. it's very difficult but i need to.  i need to realize that he is never coming back and there isn't ( Read more... )

This is very strange to me.  I have never felt this way about someone.  I think I truly might have found love this time.  It's very odd that I can enjoy one person's company so much and compeltely be wrapped up into them that when they are gone they are the only thing I can think about the only person I want to talk to.  This past week has been eye ( Read more... )

ok so alot has changed in the past 3 years that i haven't kept up my journal. where to begin? i can't believe its been three years and what used to be so important to me ( Read more... )

yea, so kyle and i are on our way to his parents house on Sunday night for the usual dinner rendevou (sp) and yea.....i look in my rear view mirror and i see cop lights and i was like "oh shit, someone's in trouble," yea...that someone was me; now mind you, i was going 37 in a 35 and wasn't doing anything illegal, so i thought to myself "what's ( Read more... )

here's pics from last night! enjoy!

http://community.webshots.com/user/sammie7164

wow...where to start! ok i guess i'll start with the florida trip ( Read more... )