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FTM!Blaine/Kurt – transgender, dysphoria – hurt/comfort

[anonymous]

So, because ftm!Blaine has gotten in my head now and won't go away, I just really want an ftm!Blaine fic, where Kurt finds out by accident (maybe Blaine was too scared to tell him, because of the bisexuality freakout?) but after the initial shock wears off, he turns out to be really supportive

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 12b/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

So for three months Finn had taken nearly every opportunity to assert his power over Blaine and to generally act like a jerk to him. It was only lately that Finn was starting to realize that Blaine had no intention of usurping him as a leader and that probably what he wanted out of glee club more than anything was to fit in and have fun. Also if anyone had a problem with Blaine's brother being part of the process, it was probably Blaine himself. Finn hadn't failed to notice that he had gotten significantly moodier since Cooper's arrival, and once or twice Finn thought he saw him biting back what probably would have been a snarky retort to one of his brother's many notes

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 12c/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'Don't,' Kurt warned. 'We'll take care of it.' Mr. Schue looked conflicted for a moment, watching as Kurt moved to go in there himself, but then he turned his attention instead to other boy

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 12d/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'Properly?' Kurt repeated. 'Properly is me and you, that's what's proper. Everything else is just details.'

'You don't have to pretend. I know,' Blaine choked out. 'I've seen way you look at me when you think I can't see.'

'Like I think you're amazing and brave?' Kurt replied without missing a beat. 'Like I admire your strength and courage to be who you are?' Kurt put a hand on Blaine's shoulder, urging him to turn around. 'Like I can't believe the crap you've been through, and I'm kind of in awe that you're still standing? Like that?'

There were tears in Blaine's eyes as he watched Kurt with a softening expression. Finn was once again overwhelmed with the feeling that he was watching something extremely private, and he wished he had the power of teleportation, but no one seemed pay him any mind. The two of them had eyes only for each other, and Cooper's gaze was fixed on his brother, a strange look on his face, that Finn couldn't quite read.

'I thought maybe...' Blaine mumbled but trailed off.

'I'm in this with you, Blaine,'

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 13a/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

First part of ch. 5, which will be posted in four parts. This is where the smut starts, people. Kinda. It's a process. Next part should be up on Wednesday/Thursday.

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Chapter 5
Hold me tight and kiss me slow
(My head gets so confused)

Part one

Coming out is the most liberating thing you have ever experienced. You're still only out to a small group of people, as you and your parents agree to take things one step at a time, but even though the world at large still sees you as "Amber" and probably assumes that you're a lesbian from the way you present yourself, it's a wonderful feeling finally being able to be honest with those closest to you, and the reactions you get are as different as the people you tell. Your parents, of course, are shocked and confused but ultimately accepting and willing to get you the help you need. Your brother makes the whole thing seem entirely insignificant, and if it isn't for the fact that he immediately starts calling you "Blaine" and "bro", you might suspect him of misunderstanding everything. As it

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 13b/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

The worst part is that it's getting harder and harder to detach yourself from the body you hate. Showers, getting undressed, and even peeing - it all gets more and more difficult, until one morning you step out of the shower, dry yourself off as usual and proceed down the hall to your bedroom, towel wrapped around you. There is a mirror in the door of your wardrobe and, when you reach out to open it, the towel slips and crumbles to the floor, leaving you naked and staring into a full body mirror. A month ago you would have just thought “huh” and gone about your business, but today the image paralyzes you to the point where all you can do is stand there, taking in every last detail that bothers you

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 13c/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'Good,' Blaine hummed, placing another soft kiss to Kurt's lips, before turning his attention to the buttons on Kurt's vest, popping each one slowly and deliberately. When they were all done, Kurt sat up a little so Blaine could push the thing off his shoulder. Kurt opened his mouth to speak, but Blaine was already in the process of neatly folding up the vest, and he placed it carefully on his bedside table

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 13d/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'I think I do,' Kurt said as Blaine's hands and eyes wandered almost reverently across Kurt's chest, and Blaine unconsciously licked his lips. Kurt wasn't ripped by any means (which was just as well as far as Blaine was concerned) but years of dance practice and caring about his diet had left him well toned. His pale skin was hairless except for a thin line running down from his navel and under the hem of his pants (Blaine was beginning to understand why they called it a “happy trail”). Blaine let his hands explore the new territory, teasing one nipple and grinning wickedly when it made Kurt's breath hitch and his words catch in his throat. 'I'm-- pretty sure-- the feeling's-- entirely mutual

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 13e/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

Blaine laughed and kissed Kurt once on the mouth before trailing his right hand down Kurt's torso, coming to a halt with his fingers barely touching the hem of his pants.

'What about this?' he asked in a low voice before he, feeling high with adrenaline and want and Kurt, so raw and exposed just for him, slid his hand swiftly into Kurt's (thankfully not too tight) pants. 'This torture, too?'

Blaine kept his eyes focused on Kurt, wanting to see his reaction, as he gripped his hard length and gave it a firm stroke. Kurt's mouth fell open and he let out a loud lewd moan, that made Blaine extremely thankful that they were alone in the house, and Blaine was pretty sure he saw Kurt's eyes roll back into his head.

'Yes, yes,' Kurt panted as Blaine continued his exploration. 'The best kind.'

'You're so gorgeous like this,' Blaine spoke low in his ear, his words raw and unfiltered. 'You should see yourself. So open and real and just-- filthy and--' Blaine broke off when he heard a sudden loud noise downstairs, and he dimly realized that it

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 14a/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

Chapter 5 continued

Part two'Hi, boys,' Blaine's mother said as he and Kurt entered the kitchen a few minutes later. 'Are you staying for dinner, Kurt? I was going to order take-out

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 14b/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'They said okay!'

Blaine and his mother looked around as Kurt strode back into the kitchen, all smiles, and Blaine's mother clapped her hands together. 'Wonderful! Slumber party it is.'

Blaine snorted and rolled his eyes. 'Mom, I said I'm seventeen. Not seven.'

'I know, silly,' she said with a fond smile. 'Listen, you boys pick whatever you want from the menu. A number three for me. I'm gonna go upstairs and take a shower.'

When she had left the room, Blaine grinned again at Kurt. 'I can't believe they said yes.'

'Me either,' Kurt said as he took Blaine's mother's place beside Blaine and glanced at the menu. 'Not that it was easy. My dad made me swear on my Lady Gaga boots that yes, there's a parent in the house and no, nothing “inappropriate” is gonna happen

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 14c/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

Blaine quickly drifted off to near sleep, half aware of his surroundings still, but losing track of time. Every now and then he would jerk awake slightly, wondering where he was and why he could feel another person's heartbeat, but then he would remember, smile to himself and doze off again. After a while he heard his mother's voice and he opened his eyes, looking blearily at her as she bid them goodnight, explaining that she had an early morning the next day. Blaine sat up quickly, then, suddenly wide awake, and Kurt startled behind him

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 14d/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

'But have you tried talking to him? Explain where you're coming from

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 14e/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

Kurt, however, simply smiled at him and gestured at the bed, asking 'What side do you want?' and a few moments later they were lying in bed, Blaine on the left and Kurt on the right, the room dark and quiet around them. After a second Kurt shifted and Blaine let out an involuntary hiss when he felt his boyfriend's icy toes against his calves

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 15a/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

Sorry for the delay in posting this. Stuff happened. And 4.04. :/ Thank you to all of you who are reading and commenting on this. Makes my day every time someone tells me they enjoy the fic.

(Chapter 5 continued)

Part three (of four)

They left Blaine's house at nine o'clock the next morning, which left them plenty of time to get to the school and get ready in time for the competition at eleven o'clock. Most the club was already gathered in the choir room when they got there - including Finn who had apparently chosen to heed Kurt's warning to not be late, so Kurt would have time to go through his combined evening and morning routine before they all had to gather for last minute preparations. Kurt gratefully accepted the plastic bag of supplies that Finn held out, and he glanced through it quickly, checking that everything was there, before he zoomed off to the bathroom

Fill: Beautifully Wrong 15b/? – ftm!Blaine/Kurt, Andersons – dysphoria, transphobia, homophobia

[ilovescarves89]

(POV change)

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Rachel had liked Blaine since their first meeting - actually since before they met, and Blaine was not even really a person, just the name of a boy Kurt had met at a neighboring school, because anyone who made Kurt smile that much was all right in Rachel's book. And of course meeting Blaine properly had been a delightful experience; with his easy charm and boundless energy and optimism, Blaine was very easy to like. However, for a long time he had remained a bit of an enigma, always happy and kind but never revealing much about himself in a strange combination of being open and closed off. It was only through working together on West Side Story and spending extended periods of time together, that the real Blaine had begun to slip through and Rachel could start to put together the pieces that made up this boy. Even though she couldn't help the feeling that Blaine still kept a lot of things to himself, she at least now felt that she could safely call him a friend regardless of his relationship with Kurt