so um.
long story short:

this christmas season was sort of a bust.
i crashed my car & my family is out of control.
i wanna run away.

home is where you hang yourself

but that's it pretty much.
other than that i need to thank chad, eric, tina and justin.
you really made me feel so much better about all this.
thank you♥

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I love how I have a terrible day, I see my boyfriend, I'm still feeling a little bad, I see my best friend, feeling better... then I get a surprise visit from Justy and my boy && i feel wonderful. These past few days have been tough and it seems that it takes a lot to make me happy right now. Things really aren't getting any better here. I feel ( Read more... )

I'm being held captive in the one place that makes me the most uneasy: my own home ( Read more... )

YAY. Last night was cool. I got to see Marcus and everyone.. I missed Stephen & Javi, and Eric. But afterwards I went to Eric's house & we watched Jackass [my first time seeing it] and just hung out. I don't think I've ever felt like things were so serene. It's like the entire world was peaceful and I could breathe without a worry or a care. See ( Read more... )

Last night was very lame. It was the annual Christmas Party that my family & the Suza's have every year. I spent most of my night with my sorta cousin, Jordynn and my cousin's daughter, Alexis [who's 1 year and 8 months old]. Every year all the fucking bro boys that are considered the "kids" go outside and talk about their felony's and all troubles ( Read more... )

to be simply put, i'm satisfied just to hear you speak, and holding on to what you said, last time you were here with me. I remember listening to passing cars, on our backs staring at the stars. i survive by these memories. Memories of you.

so i press my face against the pane of the window as i watch you drive away. once again i'm left here,
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Alright so, an update.

• Special ed play is FINALLY done with, after hours of preparation and practice - it's over. They did a fantastic job and I couldn't be more proud or happy for them :]
• I applied for housing yesterday at my college. That, for some reason, was very thrilling.
• I think I'm in love

I started to re-read a book I tried reading ( Read more... )

i believe i'm trying my best to fight off being sick but the vitamins and my meds aren't helping. i think last night/this morning was the worst i've felt so far and i'm feeling a little bit better now so hopefully that's a good sign that the worst has passed. i can't say the same for eric though, the poor kid is practically dead with broken ribs. ( Read more... )

Sometimes I get so frustrated that there are only words to explain feelings. GHSFGHFG. It's like vocabulary, something I know and love, lacks in it's depth too many times to count. I feel like Jospeh Grand from the Plague by Albert Camus. [I just finished reading that..] He sits and sits, trying to write a book, but he can never get past the first ( Read more... )