Since my dad made me go iceskating one time I havent been able to stop. I have been going everyday since. It has become a addiction almost as bad as my vicodin habbit. I am really out of shape so my whole body is in alot of pain, my poor feet ouch!! It seems to help with my stress level and is really relxing it just hurts lol! I am thinking of ( Read more... )

I met my exchic for some vicodin and she made it sound like she would only give my some if I fucked her. I met her at her house and I told her I cant do it I could never live with myself. She said she wanted to talk at gave me a channel wallet for christmas. I told her I didnt think it would be wise to hang out. I am so glad I didnt go through with ( Read more... )

I cant believe im gonna go see my ex girlfreind she has me by the balls. She knows how hooked I am on vicodin she said if we could fuck one last time she will give me a bottle so here I go

Slender beams of accusation enter this darkend church as I  kneel, always a slave, always fearful, frozen here waiting. Angelic forms wrought in panes of glass loom as dust dances in the air, forming an image in my mind spearing my naked soul. Blood on a lovers face. I raise my head, now embracing this uncaring salvation.

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Last night was horrible! I took my seroquel and still could not fall asleep! So I was stupid and doubled my dose I was shaking and my mind was racing terrible disconisha shit! Even my poor doggie Sonya is having moodswings lol. She is pregnant so she has an excuse.


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I cut the fuck out of myself lastnight I coulnt stop my husband tried to stop me but I locked him out of my room. He called my dad to come over and my I guess reality must of hit me and I saw blood everywhere. My dad rushed me to the er so I could get stitches. The hospital wanted to commit me but I said no way I dont want to be away from her for ( Read more... )

I have been really stressed out! I need to slow way down on the vicodin I am almost out. I need to go to rehab but I need to wait until christmas is over cuz I dont want to be away from my family especially my daughter. I would love to be clean now but I will end up getting really sick and I will be put in the hospital against my own will not cool ( Read more... )

Alive or dead? to whom does it matter. When the windows in my world just slam and shatter I feel for who whats inside twisted emotions being drawn like the tide. Just for a moment let me see for what reason i am meant to be.

The sun used to shine on me. There used to be a fluffily clouded sky. I knew about something called happy. I always knew just where I wanted to be. The sun is gone,replaced by night those clouds now carry thunder. I only know misery and fright,and I dont even recongize me. Somewhere in between something got forgotton and lost the key to my soul was ( Read more... )