I want to stay as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.
-Vonnegut

now the question is, are you ready for the real revolution
which is the evolution of the mind

i'm happy, today. i'm still anxious and nervous about school, i don't know why. i don't want to mess up but maybe i already have. it's okay though. i'll see chris very soon and i'm so excited. i have so many less things to worry about now. but i'm starting to realize who i really can count on. just telling yourself you're a good friend isn't ( Read more... )

it is very possible i failed my first math test today. it's alright. i have a mountain of studying to do, and so much reading. i don't mind that, either. my english teacher is indulging my neal cassady fascination, and i like that he studied with allen ginsberg. i think i can get through this year, somehow. responsibility is strange. chris ( Read more... )

graduation party, drunk, failed attempt at bogue and talks, sleep, saw hauppauge, lauras house, everyone on acid, drunk, sleep, 2 hour drive out, montauk house, beer pong, sleep, woke up in a hallway, 2 hour drive back, college, everyone on acid, american history x, home at 3 am, 4 days later.

"this never would have happend if i wasn't on acid"

senior prom was amazing, actually. we danced and looked amazing and had an entirely wonderful sober night. i gave blinky toys to the kids who were rolling. it was a nice last look at my senior class, i saw everyone i loved, everyone i hated, everyone i didn't get to know as well as i would have liked (out of a class of 700 or so). it was an ( Read more... )

i don't enjoy feeling like this empty person with nothing interesting to say. but i guess i'm really excited about prom and the week to come. yeah, call me sometime soon.

( the last two years of my life in lj language )

somewhere on long island every night at 3 am you can find a group of kids with the windows down, hair blowing everywhere, spilling alcohol and dumping the sand out of their shoes and bags, calling you all bitches, and screaming something incoherent about california, but it seems like it means a lot to them

omfg darcy is updating. i know, its crazy ( Read more... )