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I Give Up
I thought I could handle what was going on here with my life and what I might have to go through. I though I could handle what had been happening and what I was facing. I thought I could live with the possible loss and be strong enough to deal with the change it would make in my life ( Read more... ) -
Headaches and Future Doubt
I've been doing a lot of thinking since Mom made her comment the other night. LAST night, Kev dumped even more BS into the mix by deciding to ignore dinner and everyone else until Rini was long overdue for eating and her insuline was late. SO, he set off to get something for the kids and himself...and no one else. Including me. Mom and Dad fended ( Read more... ) -
Impatient and Lonely, In Pieces and Unhappy ('I Miss You')
I'm tired of hiding how I feel about things...about what my life is to me anymore, how I feel about sharing an apartment with my parents, Kev's constant bitching, missing my father so much, having to swallow my mental problems and the emotions that go with them all... I'm sick of having to be the robot. I'm sick of feeling so damned alone ( Read more... ) -
He Texted Me WHAT?!?!
Yesterday was interesting day... I got slapped around by 39 a lil bit, got a banana present from Mom in hospital, and saw the greatest car ever. A Smart Car painted in blue camouflage. Seriously, where you gonna hide THAT, Jack ( Read more... ) -
The Great Humpy Bong
Back at the end of the '60's...two young men named Tim Staffell (art student) and Brian May (student in astro-physics) were part of a band called 1984. Unfortunately, the band wasn't going anywhere at all, and the two were pretty sick of it. So they decided to move on with their music. They put up a notice looking for a Ginger Baker-style drummer ( Read more... ) -
Worn Out, Worn Down
I'm starting to really have issues with the issues around me. It's just making me so tired. I know I'm not going to bed when I should, but most of the time, my brain won't shut down enough to let me sleep. And I'm so sick of being drugged into sleep, waking up zombie-ish, struggling to get my ass moving... And I do okay, but it's hard work.
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Everything Just Gets Worse
I seriously wished I could get some time away from all the issues going on here, at least mentally, somehow...and here it all just keeps adding up. There's no answer for anything, and all I see is that everything is laid on my shoulders. Not anyone else. Because now, I'm living with the guilt of knowing there's no way out of the situation I'm ( Read more... ) -
Something To Think About
Whether it has been good or bad, whether it has been happy or sad, whether I have hated the man or loved him for being so spot-on about the truth in these words...this has been the story of my life. For as long as I can remember, this is God's truth for me. Always something happening, always drama, always some kind of hurt mixed with happiness ( Read more... )