Adommy Fanfic: A safe in my heart, Chapter 2
A safe in my heart, Chapter 2
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Words: about 1100
Disclaimer: it's just my imagination, I don't own the guys, even if I really would like to ;-) But I own the story
Summary: Adam doesn't see the love in front of him. But when he gets the hint, he wants to run away. Will Tommy let him get away? Adommy
I was standing here alone and in panic.
What happened? What was different from all those other nights?
I just didn’t get it. To calm down I went to my kitchen and got me a glass of water after rejecting to take some tequilla. I had to stay sober to be able to sort out what happened tonight. First I wanted to go back to my bed but I decided that there was too much Tommy left to let me find some clear thoughts. So I went to my living room to sit down on my couch. I let the past weeks pass by in my head.
Since we were back from the tour we met once or twice a week to keep in touch. Tommy is a very important person in my life, like my best friend. He was the one I went to when things turned out hard. But he was also the person I wanted to spend my fun time with. As I met him the first time I thought: Wow, this guy is just beautiful. After getting to know him as a person and as my bass player I put all the thoughts about how attractive he was beside. I decided to put all my feelings for him in a safe. I closed it and burried it deep in my heart. Never wanted to open it again.
We spent hours over talking, having fun, watching movies, listening to music, just as friends. When we started doing the Fever thing on stage that was just like a business idea, nothing sexual at all. It was a part of the show and we were both ok with this. We had fun.
At some of our regular meetings after the tour at my place we have talked about being alone and single. We both said that we were now in a time in our lives were it was hard to find a relationship. We also talked about how hard it sometimes was without sex. And on one of this nights we ended in a hot make-out session on my couch. We were like two hungry lions all over us with hands, mouths, tongues... It was hot. The funny thing was that we both didn’t mind about it, it was for both of us no big deal at all, nothing embarrassing. We became friends with benefits and we were both fine with this. My safe was still closed and burried deep in a corner of my heart.
I tried to find out what went different tonight. It was as allways: Tommy called me this afternoon and we decided to meet in the evening in my apartment. We wanted to watch a movie and talk about some new songs for the next album. I had written some new stuff and wanted to talk with him about it. He brought something to eat for himself, I was after dinner. We never ate together, it was not a date!
After the movie started - I don’t even know what it was - we talked and didn’t really watch it. We were talking about random stuff and joking. Tommy told me how he went to a store to buy some groceries. Then some paparrazzi were there and took pictures of him. In order to have some fun with them, he put some XXL condoms in his shopping trolley. We were laughing about the possible gossips. Suddenly my hand brushed his hand and the next thing I know was him sitting on my lap and kissing me like he was dying. And I was kissing back just as fierce as he did. We removed our clothes and went on kissing, touching, biting... it was so hot, I could not think straight. I just wanted to touch his skin, to kiss his lips, over and over again. This was just hunger for feeling skin. Nothing else. My safe was still closed, I was secure.
Tommy wanted it as much as I did. His hands were all over me. He kissed his way down my neck to my chest and then back to kiss me on my lips again. God, his kisses almost killed me. I just stopped thinking and let go.
We didn’t sleep with each other, it was just touching and kissing. But it was enough for us both to end up satisfied in my bed after what seems hours of hot making out. And there I saw the love in his eyes and here I am now.
Sigh!
How was I so stupid to play with fire! I never should let him touch me that way and I never should have touched him. I even don’t know who started it.
But now it had to come to an end!
I was sitting in my living room, not able to go to sleep.
How could this all happen? Why was there love in his eyes? We are just friends, damn it!
I felt the safe vibrate deep in my heart. I must keep it closed, I can’t let my feelings come out, I don’t want to find out what I feel for Tommy.
He is my best friend! That’s all!
I felt tears in my eyes. I was on the top of a panic attac. It was scaring me to death that Tommy possibly was in love with me. I was not ready to handle it. But did I have a choice? One thing I knew for sure: We can’t go on doing this stupid friends with benefits thing, I can’t pretend that I haven’t seen the change.
I don’t want to get hurt, not again!
How could I be stupid enough to think that this would work well? With my eyes open I ran in a fire and now I am suprised that I got burned, really? I closed my eyes and still there was his face I saw and this damn look!
Fuck!! I have to stop it right now!
I picked my cell phone and wanted to text Tommy but first I looked at the time. It was 3 in the morning.
Shit!
I have a meeting with someone in the morning at 10. I neither couldn’t remember with whom nor why.
I have to catch some sleep, tomorrow is time to talk to Tommy.
I walked over to my bedroom. When I saw the messed sheets on my bed I could feel my safe vibrating once again.
I have to stop this!
I laid down, trying to ignore that I still could smell Tommy and fell in a dreamless sleep.
Chapter 3
Pairing: Adam/Tommy
Words: about 1100
Disclaimer: it's just my imagination, I don't own the guys, even if I really would like to ;-) But I own the story
Summary: Adam doesn't see the love in front of him. But when he gets the hint, he wants to run away. Will Tommy let him get away? Adommy
I was standing here alone and in panic.
What happened? What was different from all those other nights?
I just didn’t get it. To calm down I went to my kitchen and got me a glass of water after rejecting to take some tequilla. I had to stay sober to be able to sort out what happened tonight. First I wanted to go back to my bed but I decided that there was too much Tommy left to let me find some clear thoughts. So I went to my living room to sit down on my couch. I let the past weeks pass by in my head.
Since we were back from the tour we met once or twice a week to keep in touch. Tommy is a very important person in my life, like my best friend. He was the one I went to when things turned out hard. But he was also the person I wanted to spend my fun time with. As I met him the first time I thought: Wow, this guy is just beautiful. After getting to know him as a person and as my bass player I put all the thoughts about how attractive he was beside. I decided to put all my feelings for him in a safe. I closed it and burried it deep in my heart. Never wanted to open it again.
We spent hours over talking, having fun, watching movies, listening to music, just as friends. When we started doing the Fever thing on stage that was just like a business idea, nothing sexual at all. It was a part of the show and we were both ok with this. We had fun.
At some of our regular meetings after the tour at my place we have talked about being alone and single. We both said that we were now in a time in our lives were it was hard to find a relationship. We also talked about how hard it sometimes was without sex. And on one of this nights we ended in a hot make-out session on my couch. We were like two hungry lions all over us with hands, mouths, tongues... It was hot. The funny thing was that we both didn’t mind about it, it was for both of us no big deal at all, nothing embarrassing. We became friends with benefits and we were both fine with this. My safe was still closed and burried deep in a corner of my heart.
I tried to find out what went different tonight. It was as allways: Tommy called me this afternoon and we decided to meet in the evening in my apartment. We wanted to watch a movie and talk about some new songs for the next album. I had written some new stuff and wanted to talk with him about it. He brought something to eat for himself, I was after dinner. We never ate together, it was not a date!
After the movie started - I don’t even know what it was - we talked and didn’t really watch it. We were talking about random stuff and joking. Tommy told me how he went to a store to buy some groceries. Then some paparrazzi were there and took pictures of him. In order to have some fun with them, he put some XXL condoms in his shopping trolley. We were laughing about the possible gossips. Suddenly my hand brushed his hand and the next thing I know was him sitting on my lap and kissing me like he was dying. And I was kissing back just as fierce as he did. We removed our clothes and went on kissing, touching, biting... it was so hot, I could not think straight. I just wanted to touch his skin, to kiss his lips, over and over again. This was just hunger for feeling skin. Nothing else. My safe was still closed, I was secure.
Tommy wanted it as much as I did. His hands were all over me. He kissed his way down my neck to my chest and then back to kiss me on my lips again. God, his kisses almost killed me. I just stopped thinking and let go.
We didn’t sleep with each other, it was just touching and kissing. But it was enough for us both to end up satisfied in my bed after what seems hours of hot making out. And there I saw the love in his eyes and here I am now.
Sigh!
How was I so stupid to play with fire! I never should let him touch me that way and I never should have touched him. I even don’t know who started it.
But now it had to come to an end!
I was sitting in my living room, not able to go to sleep.
How could this all happen? Why was there love in his eyes? We are just friends, damn it!
I felt the safe vibrate deep in my heart. I must keep it closed, I can’t let my feelings come out, I don’t want to find out what I feel for Tommy.
He is my best friend! That’s all!
I felt tears in my eyes. I was on the top of a panic attac. It was scaring me to death that Tommy possibly was in love with me. I was not ready to handle it. But did I have a choice? One thing I knew for sure: We can’t go on doing this stupid friends with benefits thing, I can’t pretend that I haven’t seen the change.
I don’t want to get hurt, not again!
How could I be stupid enough to think that this would work well? With my eyes open I ran in a fire and now I am suprised that I got burned, really? I closed my eyes and still there was his face I saw and this damn look!
Fuck!! I have to stop it right now!
I picked my cell phone and wanted to text Tommy but first I looked at the time. It was 3 in the morning.
Shit!
I have a meeting with someone in the morning at 10. I neither couldn’t remember with whom nor why.
I have to catch some sleep, tomorrow is time to talk to Tommy.
I walked over to my bedroom. When I saw the messed sheets on my bed I could feel my safe vibrating once again.
I have to stop this!
I laid down, trying to ignore that I still could smell Tommy and fell in a dreamless sleep.
Chapter 3