It's so weird to look back at what was written on here over a year ago and seeing what a different person I am now. The weirdest part is seeing Janden's name on here and how he went on a blind date with Brittany. Who would,ve thought that a year later he would be considered the love of my life? It gives me hope that i can lose the wait i want when ( Read more... )

I just got back from the gym. Clark was there again. I really should try to figure out his real name so I can stop referring to him by the name I made up for him. Man he is so hot. I'm his secret admirer. I'd NEVER EVER have the nerve to talk to him, but I like watching him from afar. He is kinda tall, 6 feet or so with wavey hair that brushes ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a long time. Dad still locks up the computer and this site is blocked from that hell hole school I attend. Umm.. Easter was good. I got a puppy and I named her WInnie. She is an aussie like cosmo. She is beautiful. Joe asked me to prom and I said yes even though I promised my self I wouldn't go. The concept is still stupid to ( Read more... )

I have offically been on my diet for 2 weeks now and am down 14 lbs, Not that it shows or anything. I just get so mad cause I want to eat so much shit but I worked hard and stuff, I envy people that can eat what ever they want. TOday I had a doctors apt, not fun. Thursday I have another one. I 've worked out at the gym SSSOOO much. There is this ( Read more... )

I feel like I have gone none stop since I got back from NY. I am putting SO many hours at work. I need the money though. I requested to work mornings durning the summer so I could get a night job to. I want to be like a hostess or something over the summer. I am super stress out, about a hole bunch of things. I have kinda given up with school, I ( Read more... )

Today is the first day back from Spring Break-bummer. I hate school, only 9 weeks left till I graduate! Yahoo! So NY was okay, not as great as I thought ( Read more... )

I am so happy! I leave today! I can't wait!!!!! My plan takes off at 9:42 but we are meeting at the airport at 8:00. Brittany is nice enought to take me cause my parents will be in Flag getting my sister. I have to pack! See you in a week!!!

I am so very tired. I just got back from Tuson and I need to sleep badly. Britt and I did really well on our compition, we placed in the top ten in the state, I didn't think we did well at all. But oh well, the judges think we did. I leave for new york friday night! I can't wait! I thought I was leaving late Saturday night, so I have to work on ( Read more... )

I could barly sleep last night because I am so stinking worried about stupid Robin. I am not going to cry in front of her, I don't care if I have to bite my tongue until it falls off, I am not under any cercumstance cry in front of her, that is letting her win. I feel stupid for crying at work. I've cryed so many times! Even in front of Eric. I ( Read more... )

One week from today I leave for NY City! I am so excited!!!! I'can wait ( Read more... )