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Well, it's been almost a year since I've posted on this journal.  Why the heck not.  I lost my job a little over a month ago.  I still haven't been able to find another job.  I want to go back to school, but I don't have a clue how I'll be able to go to school and pay all of my bills.  Heck, I can't even pay my bills now as it is.  I miss having a ( Read more... )

Okay, so last you heard I was trying to figure out why I was always so down when I had really no reason to be.  I know when I'm like that I'm being unreasonable.  It's like I'm on the outside looking in. I feel helpless to control any of it- my actions, my respones, etc.  Figured it had to do with anxiety because I always felt so overwhelmed, ( Read more... )

Today...not a good day.  I've felt heartsick all day.  Not sure what brought it on...just had a general feeling of unrest today.  I had nightmares all night that dealt with my insecurities, and I couldn't leave my dreams behind today.  I've spent all week contemplating these insecurities and where they stem from.  They come from my relationship ( Read more... )

So, wow.  Where to start?  It's been awhile.  I enjoy my job.  It's a bit higher stress than I had originally anticipated, but I think once I learn how to manage it, it won't be so bad.  I guess the thing that's sitting most heavily on my mind is a guy (when isn't that on my mind...)  I met this particular guy about a month and a half ago, and we' ( Read more... )

Rebecca is dead ( Read more... )

So I updated my myspace profile page.  Yay anime!  I added a music video in the television section.  It's "Goodbye My Lover" by James Blunt. It's set to excerpts from Sailormoon.  Yes, I can hear the collective groans.  But for its time, it was actually a fabulous show.  And it's the show that got me started in the genre.  The creator of the AMV ( Read more... )

A year ago on this day I moved home at an ungodly time of morning.  My ex and I had a huge fight and I had finally had enough.  I called my parents in tears (and drunk off my ass) at approximately 2:30 am to come pick me up.  He was at his sister's trying to cool down and I wanted to be gone before he came back.  I was done.  I didn't want to fight ( Read more... )

Okay, so I don't have to repeat this to everyone 100 times over, I'm just going to post the findings here.  As many of you know, I went in for a colonoscopy this morning.  The procedure itself was nothing big.  The prep SUCKED, though.  You have to drink this icky crap (I think it was a 2 liter jug, but I could be wrong).  If anyone ever wants to ( Read more... )

Okay, my friend Daniel T. told me that this story perfectly described me.  Maybe he's right.  It's taken from an anime call Furuba, or Fruits Basket.  The character Momiji is the one who tells it.  He's a member of the Sohma family who carries the curse of the chinese zodiac. When the cursed members are hugged my a person of the opposite sex, they ( Read more... )