The void is still hollow, it's sitting in the pit of my stomach. Something's missing, I feel a contempt for people with plans..That goto parties, have people to call on, places to go. I feel like life is passing me by as I waste away on a sofa in the middle of boring vermont. How long am i supposed to feel confused for ( Read more... )

My hands open to the touch of your hair
flowing over the back of your neck
you've torn down all the walls inside
in this imaginary landscape
I recover

Lights flashing
thoughts chasing
but this time im ahead

I recover

Can't stay asleep
the marathon runs along
running my hands along the glass
just let me go this one time

control is over run
the hands take over
cant restore order
running my hands over your hair

i feel..

something like...

giving the panting breath time to catch up
my chest expands and the heart is overwhelemd
numbness in the lips
its over now

Moses twice climbed the mountain (mount sinai in egypt) to commune with God, according to the bible. We all have people we've looked up to, admired, related to.. One of those people in my life was my history teacher Mr. Acebo. Having not seen him for nearly 6 years I spotted him at a local bookstore and approached him ( Read more... )

I've felt a bit of anxiety grabbing at me lately. I tend to realize what im feeling so much sooner and more intensely then ever before. Is this growing up? I wonder if people ever grow down.. ha. Makes me wonder where this awareness has been before now ( Read more... )

signs of grain
running over time
bullets like waves
only rearranging sound
history turns with the tide
but not the deeds of man

I got kicked out of the red cloud about I believe 5 months ago, It still pisses me off sometimes. Like a $20 dollar margarita. What more could I have said or done? nothing, what did I really do? I couldn't move things along quick enough, the very thing that frustrated me about david, my so called partner in crime. A truely odd guy in too many ways ( Read more... )

We all have balance in some aspects of our lives, yet its finding yourself in that state, noticing it, breathing it so as to when you're fading from it you have some kind of reference point to get it back ( Read more... )

It's been a very long time since my last update. Unreal ( Read more... )

out of reach
of the light of dreams
where i kept you safe with me
escape to the darkness

you knew all along..
can you fill the chill in the air?
as i let go..

you and him
in my eyes
i imagine
fall leaves motionless

eventually scattering

by the rain i fill with
forget about trust
subtract the distance
all thats left are embers....