I'm exhausted. It's been a long night and not a good one at that.  I have to go to brunch in a few hours with my family who hates each other, yet puts on an act every holiday and pretneds to like one another.  By the way, it's January 1, 2007. A new year. I'm not happy about this, 2006 was a good year.  A time of huge change. The year I graduated ( Read more... )

This is the eve of my greatest fears. My secret is--I haven't done enough to prevent it.  Love. I can give this to you. Here comes the flood. Take it? It's not a lot, but it's all i've got left. Hate is easy; Love takes courage.  I want to get out of this place.

I miss Montauk:

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shoooooooooooooooootmeeeeeeeeeepleasekthanksbye

shit ( Read more... )

my birthday was amazing. new car. convertable buggy. silver. 2003. beautiful. video ipod. loads of cash. a roomful of daisys. saw the people that mattered<3 amazing day and night :] 
one thing missing: chris james, my brotherrrr :[  can't wait til thanksgiving<3

mike,jake,steve.. love ya since you stalk my life on this thing.

edit: night of oct. 18th-
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one.
my life consists of black and blues
and never of any i love yous
with a broken heart
my mind an ocean apart

i'm tired of pretending
it seems to be neverending
i miss those days full of joy
and not these ones full of "oh boy"

i will go on forever
and i know i will not ever
be happy again
in the end

two.
her eyes as green as the grass
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shitfuck. the only one hurting me is myself.

edit: i can't stop spilling out words.
i'm trying to write this damn english paper .
normally i'd be able to whip crap like this out in 15 minutes. 
it's been 2 and a half hours i've been sitting here attempting to write a simple 2 page paper
my mind keeps wondering.

its funny how hello is always accompanied ( Read more... )

jkldfkjldsfjkldfkjldfskjldfsjkfgjkfdklsjdaklfjdklfa
why do i care so much? make it stoppppp

hmm it wasn't bad at all.
KYLE I MISSS Y OUUU

orientation tomorrow-AHH nicole is home-YAY i'm getting a car-woohoo