god, i just feel so disgusting. So completely gross. Just so . . . . . . ugly. . . . .. . . . and shit.

http://www.canadianliving.com/health/nutrition/top_5_ways_to_boost_your_metabolism_naturally.php

This is a good article on weight-loss tips:

http://www.homemakers.com/homemakers/client/en/Home/DetailNews.asp?idNews=237025&pg=2

Seek and ye shall find. Knock and the door shall be opened unto you. 

I tried the Salt Water Flush, and it works. 
However, heating up the water, and drinking down 4 cups with 2 tablespoons of salt is definitely a form of torture. I eventually threw up a small amount.

So, I've made a different kind of Salt Water Flush:

-2-4 cups of cold water
2 tablespoons of epsom salts, stir to dissolve
juice of 1/2 a lemon
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I can only be honest with myself, even though it hurts. Because sometimes, the truth hurts, but its still the truth. And i can't live a lie. That would be the only thing worse than my reality. Right now, I have no true friends, no one knows the real me, and i know if they did, they would hate me. I'm not adequate as a person; I'm less than ( Read more... )

 Ok, so my brother did give me his birthday gift after all. It was nice. And his card was cute. . . . it said "If I had to go halfsies, I'm glad it was with you." And it had 2 little kids on the front sharing a popsickle. . . . . . i guess he's an okay brother . . . :)

Im tired of trying to live up to other people's expectations of who I should be. I need to just do this for myself.

 I'm really pissed off at my older brother right now,

. . . because he's always too busy for anything important in my life. . . . he showed up half an hour late for my birthday lunch with my family. . . basically spent the whole time talking about how he couldn't wait to get back to his friends. . . . . and he just doesn't make an effort to do " ( Read more... )