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On her
She was... so caring. CJ knew what it was to be deep in despair, and it made her more in touch with others, and cared more than others, because she knew what it was to need that care from others-- things meant more to her than for most people. Meeting up for lunch, talking about life, trinkets and notes and life's trials-- she knew the true value ( Read more... ) -
I hope never to again
have friends go through a divorce. So much is lost, there's so much hurt. I'm watching two couples go through divorces right now, and its just so disconcerting to see the effects on people's personalities, actions, and choices. How jaded everything gets. -
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Update on those who know me...
Busy as hell, tired as hell, almost worried that I might have fibromyalgia like my mom, always tired ( Read more... ) -
today.. like all days
totally just had a deja-vu ... so my deja-vu was that i was thinking about what i was going to write in my live-journal and it was going to go something like this: " It seems everyday i just cant seem to get rid of this deep unsettling unhappiness, this feeling like something is missing or wrong, even when I have the biggest smile on my face..." ( Read more... ) -
Responding to Onyxraven's comment:
Well, the difference is that we did have an agreement, and a responsibility to eachother, and you and jake still don't. i was saying that wat i believe is different from what i feel, and thats why i'm a hypocrite- but i was really LIED to, which is different from having the truth (which might be none of my business) withheld, cause it was my ( Read more... ) -
so, no one reads these
I'm up way too late for once, had alcohol (some coke and whiskey, cam's), and having convos con mi amigos zac and ashley. we're talking about the line between lying and withholding information, which is definitely a touchy subject for me but one i've been thinking about alot, and i know i have a double standard but i dont- i had information ( Read more... ) -
I think I figured it out
Well, I already showed that we were both screwed up, we both did, really, screw eachother. His actions habitual showed that he truly believed we had no responsibilities to eachother, and he stood firm that he could keep himself separate. Well, I had warned him that I was walking away, and then he's all hurt because i stayed firm in mine- what the ( Read more... ) -
yup. I screwed up. I think (?)
well, so, i had fun this weekend. LOTS of fun. really, it was much fun, making out for lots and lots of time with lots and lots of good kissers. Some a little more, but we'll not go there. well, mario was in New York, supposed to be getting his own self on at the clubs, getting to know other more intimately. but, having no way to contact him, i had ( Read more... )