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Jul 12, 2006 16:48

You'll never guess who I just saw in Blockbuster. Kristen and her new boyfriend, Eric. I feel...I don't know what I feel. I guess I feel overwhelmingly sad, excruciatingly violent, angry, downtrodden, pathetic, weak, useless, alone. My little sister started making a lot of noise about it, saying she should just go over there and kick him in the ( Read more... )

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_deciduous July 13 2006, 05:49:54 UTC

Why can't i just be like other people?Actually, this sounds like a perfectly normal reaction to me - at least, it is the same reaction that I had in a similar circumstance. Heartbreak does tend to cause feels of hatred, worthlessness, fury, depression, self-loathing, violence, and generalized anguish. Please don't take this as me discrediting what you are going through. Pain relating to love is pain of the worst kind, and it's a little bit different for everybody ( ... )

gluteousmaximus July 13 2006, 06:07:37 UTC

I understand where you're coming from with all of this. It is all good advice. There is only one problem: I'm not trying to prove my self-worth to either of them, but to myself. It would be too easy to throw it all away. But I know I won't. In the end, you are right. Neither he nor she is worth destroying my future over. I've known it all along, but living through all the emotional uprisings is so difficult at times that it is all I can do to keep from snapping. It hurts like hell, but deep down I know it will all end eventually.

anonymous July 16 2006, 05:36:00 UTC

This seems the easiest way of getting ahold of you. While I am still as unsure of what happened as I have been all along, I would at least like to say goodbye.
Curtis

gluteousmaximus July 16 2006, 18:52:27 UTC

Nothing specifically happened. I just couldn't take it anymore. I'm not quite sure why you're saying goodbye; I'm not leaving til the end of august. Well, you know how to reach me if you need something else.

dontcallmeanna July 24 2006, 02:07:05 UTC

i think he's refering to the fact that you two haven't been getting along so well (read: at all) in the past months. you two meant a lot to each other- a proper goodbye is probably in order.

and i'm sorry about billy's relapse. i don't know how to help.