Let's just add something else to Max's life to make everything even worse than it alrewady was before.
Billy relapsed.
That is just great. Fucking perfect.

You'll never guess who I just saw in Blockbuster. Kristen and her new boyfriend, Eric. I feel...I don't know what I feel. I guess I feel overwhelmingly sad, excruciatingly violent, angry, downtrodden, pathetic, weak, useless, alone. My little sister started making a lot of noise about it, saying she should just go over there and kick him in the ( Read more... )

I feel empty. Totally devoid of, well, everything. I can't find any music worth listening to, or find anything worth doing. Tried reading, got sick of it. Was going to draw; lost the motivation to do so. Sleep? I can only do so when my body shuts itself down from absolute exhaustion. Internet bores me. Writing seems not only futile, not even worth ( Read more... )

I'm restless again. I feel like a tiger stalking about in a cage that I cannot see or touch, but that I can sense somehow. Have you ever watched a tiger pacing about its habitat? They are the embodiment of restlessness in my mind. I have to start all over on my positive-thinking binge. I've slid back to where I was before. I don't see the positive ( Read more... )

I firmly believe that the letter 'Q' should be instated as a real, bonafide number. That's right folks; let's make Q a number. We could place it in the space between 473.5 and 474. i'M NOT INSANE, I'M JUST ECCENTRIC. Okay, so maybe am a bit off my rocker. Life is boring me, because nothing seems like it is worth doing because of the time constraint ( Read more... )

I hardly slept last night, and only then for about 4 hours. I dreampt awful dreams last night. Not awful in the sense that a nightmare is, but awful in the sense when you realize that your daily events are of such a nightmarish quality that they can so readily exist in a bad dream. It is scary to see all of your own realistic fears come true. I ( Read more... )

I just got a bunch of stuff from Knox about courses and such. I'm all excited. I want school to start. For some reason, all afternoon, my arms and hands are kind of shaky. Weird.

As I'm sure you have all noticed, IT'S RAINING AGAIN!!!!! I love it. I love standing out in the rain and surveying the empty, rain-soaked world around me. I always feel very regal and noble when I do so, as though I am lord over all the lands that I see, because I am the only one out there to claim them as his right. The rain makes a lot of people ( Read more... )

I just saw the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie at the 12:00 showing, and I must say it was considerably better than I had expected. I need to get out more. But how does one go about making new friends, when you have none at the moment, and you are lacking certain social skills that make you comfortable to get to know completely random people? ( Read more... )

Sorry if I'm a little volatile right now, it's just that so much has happened recently that I don't know how to cope with. I realize I go from one mood to another like I am changing shirts. I'm out of it in the extreme, and I'm trying to do what I can to fix it. It is difficult to fall out of touch with the world under the best of circumstances, ( Read more... )