Can't sleep, because my rage consumes me. What I wouldn't give to be able to get away with murder. My veins race with liquid hatred, producing an inexorable tide of vengeful malice inside me. I can't sleep because my fingers itch for his throat, my fists for his face. If ever an urge to cause pain and suffering has been this palpable, I have never ( Read more... )

I feel restless and insatiable. It's as though there is something I want or need to be doing, which I am not complete without,but I don't know what it is. I feel like I'm always searching for something, and that I won't know what it is until I have it. It seems as though what I'm searching for is, in some form, a physical object, a satiation of a ( Read more... )

I am so bored. Because I am bored, I am becoming depressed. It is hard to occupy one's self when you don't really have friends anymore. It seems I have chased off the few friends that I did have, as well as my girlfriend. So, whenever I'm not doing something that keeps my mind busy, my thoughts tend to wander back to the fact that I have no friends ( Read more... )

I just went outside and stood in the rain for a good 15 minutes. I left through the side door in my room, wearing only a t-shirt and boxers. Standing there, letting the rain wash over me, I felt pure. I felt better than I have in a long while. I was one with myself. I wandered, barefoot, around our property for a while, before returning through the ( Read more... )

It has been a long time since i've been on here. Looking back on last summer's entries, i'm surprised to find many similarities to this summer, except that this summer I'm having problems with girls. BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well, at least it's raining outside. I love rain. That's about all I have to say right now. Oh Anyone who reads this, plz ( Read more... )

Life is good right now. This is the biggest social life i have ever had, and i'm loving every minute of it. I'm going to be sad when break ends because then my social life will probably become non-existant once more. Oh yeah, awesome news: I have a girl friend. During the first week or so of break i asked Kristen out. Unlike all previous attempts ( Read more... )

yeah, so i'm bored. I'm stealing this stupid little quiz thing from Scuz just for the hell of it ( Read more... )

Guess what just came in the mail?!?!?!? MY LETTER OF ACCEPTANCE TO KNOX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In case you hadn't noticed, I'm ecstatic...Knox being my first choice and all. Goddamn! Who would have thought that even after barely passing Freshman and Sophmore year that I'd be able to get into the college of my choice (and a damned good one too, i might ( Read more... )

Meh, what's there to say? Not much point in rehashing old stuff, and nothing new has happened to me soooo it's the same old same old. I've been working on a longer story, nothing terribly complex, rather generic actually, but i'm just trying to see if i am capable of writing a thoughtful story of any decent length over 20 pages. I feel the need to ( Read more... )

It's sad how right i have been all these years. i always knew that one of the few unchanging things in my life was the fact that i am alone. i've never liked people in general because they frighten me. we humans are just too unpredictable, too nasty to turn your back on for even a second. I don't like being depressed, and to deal with it lately i ( Read more... )